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| Sat, 04-09-2005 - 6:23pm |
I am still a mess. I am so depressed. I blew off school part of the day yesterday and slept through part of one today. I just could not wake up. Dh is annoyed that with the meds I have seen no improvement. I am having vivid dreams/reality/I don't know what that scare me for I don't know why (not scary things I am visioning). They are just when I am falling asleep so I don't go to sleep. I have been up until 2 that last two nights then waking up at 5 with the kids. So, I am even more tired. I have been crying every day. I am nauseus. I am on an antibiotic for some post nasal drip that has been making be sick for several weeks. I ended up near a panic attack feeling like I could not breathe. I can not wait until Monday to talk to the doctor. I plan on calling on Monday to try to get her to see me before the 19th. I can not live like this and am scared for myself and my family. In my visions, I am constantly yelling at my kids and family and they seem sooooo real. I thought it was storming out and it was not. I could not even tell which room of the house I was actually in. At one point, I think I was really screaming out of fear, which I don't really understand. I am afraid that is some kind of psychotic episode, which I never have had before. I am seriously considering the out patient program at the hospital that the hospital referred me to. I just can't work out school, daycare and the move if I am gone for 5-10 mornings. Plus it would cost us about $1000. Ugh. Gonna go stop my fighting kids.
Missy


Missy --
As a fellow newbie -- hang in there!
I hope that your pdoc will be able to see you sooner and that you have some peace and tranquility at night (and the rest of the time too).
Cheri
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