How do you know? Will I know?

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Registered: 10-03-2004
How do you know? Will I know?
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Sat, 04-09-2005 - 6:34pm
I'm recently dx and I'm not sure who "I" really am. I know I'm not just a label. Where does my label end and where does the real me start? I know it's a continum. I don't guess there is any one right answer. Are there any good ways or web sites to help me figure out who I am? I'm worried that I won't know when my meds are right so I won't know my warning signs. What if I'm really just naturally obsessive, irritable and anxious? I'm kinda rambling and probably not communicating clearly but any insites would be helpful. Thanks for listening, er, reading.
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Sun, 04-10-2005 - 5:21pm

I am constantly asking dh how he thinks I am doing. It is hard when he says not all that well, but on some level I normally know that if I am asking. To be honest, I worry about the same thing. What if I am normally this way? Have I always been depressed, angry etc. Then I worry that maybe it is not me and dh is the moody one. When I get real bad, I try to blame everyone else and think I am completely fine. I also try to judge by how active I am and how frustrated I get with my kids - either fast or slow. I don't care if I am who I might have been before. I just want to be happy and even keeled a whole lot more. I feel like for the last two years, I have not even been close to me.

Hope you find the answers you are looking for. Know that you are not in this alone. I wish I was closer to finding "me"

 
 
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Sun, 04-10-2005 - 10:05pm
I feel much better having read your post. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one worried about finding the real me. I also, want to be even keeled and hopefully up more than down. Thanks for the reply.
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Sun, 04-10-2005 - 11:41pm

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