Going to Pdoc tonight

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Going to Pdoc tonight
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Wed, 04-20-2005 - 11:44am

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How am I suppose to fit everything I have to say to him in 45 minutes?? I know that I need something stronger something for bp, not just two antidepressants and a super mega low dose nerve pill. I don't want him to think I'm some drug head, because they say bp people can be dependant on other drugs or means of getting "high". I just want to be stable. I don't want intrusive thoughts, I don't want to think that someone said something to me when I actually had a dream about it and it never happened. So many things are messing with me. I'm paranoid too. I'm having a severe mixed episode and want to crawl under my desk. I had a panic attack on the elevator this morning coming to work. I have no leave time to go home or I would be there. I'm scared and don't know how to get it all through to pdoc so he can help me not feel this way anymore. I know I'm insisting on a tdoc to get through some issues I'm having major trouble with. I'm scared I'll forget something important even with my list. Did I forget to write something down? Did I mention something twice? I'm just a mess and a half today. Any help sure would be appreciated. I'm taking so many deep breaths I feel as if I'm about ready to pass out again.

I'm not having a bad day, I'm having a miserable day. Wish me luck yall........I'm gonna need it.
Carla

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Registered: 07-24-2003
Wed, 04-20-2005 - 1:07pm

Carla:

If you are concerned about what to say to him, or that you are going to forget something, write a list now of what you need to cover with him or print your post and bring it with you for him to read.

As for him thinking you are a drug addict looking for a fix, it isn't like you are marching in there and telling him to rx you some barbituates or anything like that. I would just very firmly explain that what he has you on isn't helping you in the least and he needs to fix it - and do not let him sidestep fixing it. If he doesn't want to adjust your meds, ask him to explain to you why. If you aren't satisfied with his answer, TELL HIM SO. If your insurance doesn't allow you to change drs and doesn't allow you to see any dr without a referral, ask him to refer you to someone that is capable of helping you, perhaps someone even more specialized.

Good luck
Tracey

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Wed, 04-20-2005 - 2:37pm
Tracey,
Thank you. Printing the post is a great idea. I've been adding to a list that I've had for weeks in hopes of seeing him. I guess I'm very paranoid thinking he'd think I was a junkie, but I just need help. When I spoke to the new lady in the office I asked her if he was finished with me as a patient, her answer was, I don't know. I thought I was going to fall out of my chair. I simply told her if he was then that would be fine since he hasn't returned any of my calls. I called over 10 times yesterday. Sure that may seem excessive but it wasn't. I was told early in the morning I would speak to him yesterday and I heard nothing. I called a lot when I got home. I'm scared to use my stove, I'm scared I will hurt myself, it is gas. I'm scared I will intentionally hurt myself, so I kept calling......no response. So this morning I actually got a call. But I sure do appreciate your reply. I will print that off and take it with me.
Carla
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Registered: 01-06-2005
Wed, 04-20-2005 - 7:37pm

(((((carla)))))

i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better i really do. all i can offer you is the knowledge that i will always be there for you and i give you all my heart that you feel better tomrrow.

i feel so bad that you are hurting. i am giving you a huge ((((((HUG)))))) to tide you over until you feel better.

much luv,

valerie

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Registered: 03-19-2005
Thu, 04-21-2005 - 8:58am

(((((Carla)))))

I am writing to see how your appointment went last night. I could tell from your post that you were really struggling. I really hope you were able to get everything out that you needed to and that your doctor really listened. Did he offer you any change on your medications? I know exactly what it feels like to not be on meds that are really helping. Hang in there... things will hopefully be a little brighter soon.

Hope to hear from you soon :-)

Kris