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| Thu, 04-21-2005 - 9:41pm |
Having a terrible day. i'm very nervous and upset and need some positive feedback of ANY kind. debating whether or not to stay on this board. i feel a lot of negative energy that i just can't handle. im very manic/depressed right now. i hope that i still have some friends here. can i hear from you guys?
valerie

Valerie,
You are more than welcome here...negative energy comes and goes, so try not to let it get you down, okay?
oh keli!!! im so so glad to hear from you! i'm very upset i haven't been to sleep. im trying to stop crying i thought i lost you all! i need this board so much and to think that i lost you guys, it was too much to bare. im trying to pull myself together trying to make things better today but i dont know if i can. im so so sorry for everything
i can't tell you how grateful i am that you wrote to me, i thought i would be blacklisted and no one would speak to me ever again.
thank you thank you thank you for being so kind!
((((BIG BIG HUGS))))
VALERIE
(((((((Valerie)))))))
We're not giving up on you. Let me repeat. We're not giving up on you. All it was, was a misunderstanding and a disagreement. Nobody can agree 100% of the time and remain true to themselves. You both had different ideas, but somewhere along the line there was a misunderstanding about how you both presented the opinions. It's natural and healthy, actually. We all forgive you. Tracey has said repeatedly that she forgives you. It's really difficult to convey emotion over the computer. You do a great job of it! Tracey has said that she accesses the group at work and is really busy; she doesn't have the time that some of us have to put all our heart into the messages. That doesn't make them any less sincere or truthful. Please take Tracey at her word...all of us, for that matter, at our word. We mean what we say, and we know you do, too.
Lots of hugs, Valerie! We're still here for ya, hon! Please keep posting and staying true to yourself and your recovery.
...Days til we meet Zoe!

Thank you so much! i'm having a horrible day. i cant stop crying and thinking us guys don't want me here anymore. im so glad to hear thats not true. i wish i wasn't so obsessive i really try to rein myself in its so hard sometimes. i know this is something that i need to work on. i didnt mean to be a pain. i just got so excited and my common sense went out the window. i didn't think id ever hear from any of you guys again.
im sorry if im rambling. im still trying to let this go. im just too sensitive and when i think about it, i just breakdown. all this has triggered an asthma attack. im really gonna try my hardest to stop obsessing and crying. i promise
Please tell tracy that im sorry. i put her on ignore posts in anger, i hope i can remove it.
valerie
can i talk to you off line? my email address is omeomi_9@hotmail.com
valerie