I'm back and not well .....(triggers?)
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I'm back and not well .....(triggers?)
| Sat, 04-23-2005 - 4:24pm |
I had a wonderful time in FL. I had the best birthday I've had in a long time and a very relaxing week. It was so wonderful. I haven't felt that good in a long time, Of course we always must come home, back to real life and the life that was waiting for me hasn't been good.
While I was gone dh honored my request to help our first furbaby over to the bridge. ^Calvin^ had battled chronic renal failure for a very long time, most of his short 8 1/2 yr life. I knew it was time a while ago but just couldn't bring myself to take him so while I was away dh did it for me. I didn't find out until I came home. I

((((((((Danielle))))))))
I am so sorry that you are struggling right now. About your Mom, I think it would be best if you ask her to postpone her trip until you are in a better place. It might sting a little, but hey, there isn't much you can do about it. I am sorry about ^Calvin^. Our fur babies are important to us. I understand your pain,and I hope that it becomes less painful for you soon. Have you contacted your Pdoc and told him/her what you are going through. I can't remember if you have a Tdoc, if you do, when is your next appointment? Maybe talking these issues out will help you immensely.
I know what you mean about DH going to school. Mine has 7 Level that he has to go to in San Antonio. Don't know when, but with this next assignment he will be deploying a lot. :(
Thanks Cyn, that is exactly where my dh is headed to, 7 level school. It's roughly 4 weeks that I am not looking forward to, probably
Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
(((((Danielle))))),
I am sure your Calvin is romping in pet paradise with our recently departed Smokey and all the other fur, feather & whatever babies that have left their humans behind!
(((((Danielle))))))
I'm really sorry to hear about ^Calvin^. All animals have souls, just like us. (That's why they sometimes seem so human.) I hope you get reunited someday!
Your dh's 7-level school could be a good thing! You have the chance to get things worked out with yourself (and your p/t-doc). Besides, this could help financially. He'll get the per diem, of course. And Biloxi doesn't have much to do, unless your dh is into casinos and/or tattoos. (Although the tattoo parlors there are great, and not too expensive. I got my first one there during my tech school.) The base is a nice facility, and they have computers and internet available. So you should still get to talk to him. Prior enlisted (7-level people, people like that) have a lot more freedom and things available to them than do people in tech school. If you need any support while he's gone, or even while he's home, please know that we're all here for you!
I think Cyn and Marci are right about your mom visiting. It's tough to stand up to parents! (I've just recently grown a backbone with mine, too.) But she's a big girl. She'll get over it. If you state it with "I" statements and keep it focused on why YOU need this space for YOURSELF, then she'll have nothing to get mad at. If she does get upset, it'll be her own issue, not yours. If you present it with the focus on yourself (this is NOT selfish!), then she'll know you're not trying to exclude her because of HER, but rather because you've got your own things going on. Maybe present it as, "Mom, I have a lot going on right now, and I wouldn't be able to give you the time and attention I'd like to if you come right now. Could we reschedule your visit for another time when we could actually have a good time together and I could give you the attention I'd like to?" Something like that.
Either way, whatever you decide to do... please take care of yourself! And we're always here for you!!
...Days til we meet Zoe!
