Not doing so good right now

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Registered: 10-18-2004
Not doing so good right now
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Tue, 05-03-2005 - 8:32pm
Well, I went to my first group therapy session yesterday and well it sucked!!! I was the only one who was Bipolar (everyone else had major depression) and they were all old enough to be my grandmother. Everyone went around and discussed their meds and what kind of a week they were having and we ended up spending like 30 minutes on this one woman who totally dominated the conversation. And she cussed like a sailor. Anyway, I only got 5 minutes to go over my meds and introduce myself. The ladies were asking me if I was married, had kids, worked, had a college degree. I had to say no to all of the above and it made me feel really bad, like I didn't have anything to offer. I'm going to give it one more shot, but I think I do better when I see my doctor one on one. Anyway, today I have been depressed again, but what else is new. I'm sick of myself and all the bad thoughts I keep having. I can't focus on anything and feel pretty worthless right now. I have been trying to eat healthy and for the past 2 days I have totally blown it. I weigh almost 400 lbs. and have been trying to lose weight. Obviously, I have an eating disorder. I'm trying to follow Dr. Phil's Eating Plan, but it is so hard. Sometimes I think I am addicted to food, you know? I am sick of being this size, but I can't seem to lose weight. To make matters worse, I have an underactive thyroid. So, between that and the medication for Bipolar I am really overweight. Anyway, I hope you guys are having a great week. Thanks for all the encouragement and advice. Take Care!!!
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Registered: 10-03-2004
Tue, 05-03-2005 - 9:46pm

I'm sorry your first group therapy did go well. Although I eneded up liking mine it did take awhile. There was one point I even left my pdoc a voice mail trying to get her to let me out of going to group. My group was like that, too, where one person would end up taking over and we'd spend 30 mintues on him/her. I just made sure that later on once I was more comfortable I got my turn. I was even the only bipolar person for a while too. I hope your next session gets better and you start coming up.

I'm with you on the eating too. I'm working on trying to eat healthier. It's really really hard.

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Wed, 05-04-2005 - 9:33pm

I just wanted to chime in on a little support on the weight issue.

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Registered: 10-03-2004
Wed, 05-04-2005 - 10:00pm

I just had to jump in again. Thanks for all that info Morgaine. I used to be a "skinny minnie," too. Depakote and Zyprexa was the cause for my most recent weight gain problem. I had almost lost almost all my post baby weight when I got put on those two. I am working on eating a healthier diet. I'm not used to having to work so hard loosing weight. It's driving me up the wall.

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