Update on Me

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Update on Me
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Thu, 05-05-2005 - 1:58pm

Hi everyone...My BP is stable...and has been for 3 LONG, HARD weeks...I'm still feeling a bit lost, though...as I try to figure out who this new person is...I used to be crazy manic or suicidally depressed or both 24/7...now I'm not any of those things and I just don't really know what to do with myself.

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Registered: 02-06-2004
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 05-06-2005 - 2:03am

(((((((Keli))))))

Wow so glad to hear!

I've missed talking to you, but that might be due more to my flakiness on the boards than your struggles. I really don't know. Memory really sucks.

Love you lots!

Amanda

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Registered: 11-18-2003
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 05-06-2005 - 10:13am

(((((keli))))) i wish i could say i've experienced what you are feeling right now, but truth is, i can only imagine what it must be like. and the best advice i have to offer is keep doing what you are doing. as a member of alanon, i have heard soooo many times "you are doing what you need to do" and i think that is true. i think we get to expect so much from ourselves that when we break out of "super-human" mode we are lost. so just know that for right now, this day, this hour, this minute that you are doing what you need to do and are doing a great job to boot:) so you hang in there girl! you've got a lot of people backing you up here and we all love ya!


hugs


traci

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Registered: 11-22-2003
In reply to: keli003
Mon, 05-09-2005 - 5:16pm

Keli,


Wow! It sounds like you wrote that post for me, too. I have the exact same thing going on. Since I'm stable, I feel blah. And since I feel blah, I'm not motivated at all to take care of anything, or even to get out of bed sometimes. If my 20-month-old isn't screaming for breakfast, I don't even get out of bed. (Between my pregnancy and my meds and my toddler, I'm exhausted literally all the time.) Don't know if you get this, too, but I tend to feel blah on the outside and totally unmotivated to even watch a particular TV show or movie, but on the inside I'm so wired that it feels like bugs are crawling under my skin! (Is this a mixed episode? I always get confused. I just called for a telephone conference with my doc to see if the meds need to be changed or what I can do to not be so tired all the time.)


I hope you know that you are definitely not alone. There is nothing new under the sun. Don't know how other people's problems are supposed to make us feel better, but at least we're never going through things alone - especially on this board! We're all here for you, hon! You're doing a great job!!

~ Aislinn

~ Aislinn