Here we go again

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Registered: 10-18-2004
Here we go again
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Thu, 05-05-2005 - 2:44pm
Hi Guys! Hope you all are having a good day today. I am sick of being in this mixed episode. I didn't sleep at all last night and I am extremely irritated and angry. My Mom is a school teacher and basically told me that she doesn't have time to deal with my episodes because she is too busy because it is the end of the school year. She told me to go to my Dad if I have any problems. It made me so mad and it hurt my feelings. My Mom and I are real close. I think that's why it upset me. I can't put my Bipolar Disorder on hold while she finishes up the school year, ya know? It's not something I can help. I have been on muscle relaxors for about three weeks now and I think that is what is causing my problem with the mixed feeling I am having. I am tired, but my mind is racing. I keep think of things I can do at home to make money or maybe I could get a job, but I can't work. I know realistically that I couldn't hold down a job, but I'm so anxious. I just want something to do during the day. It gets old just hanging out at my house. I try to go to the gym everyday, but it's real hard for me to get the energy to go. I have driving myself crazy today because I have been trying to plan a feast for Mother's Day for our family and I don't know what to cook. I spent have the morning looking through all our recipes. I'm tired and gotta go. Thanks for listening.
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Registered: 04-02-2003
Thu, 05-05-2005 - 4:29pm
(((((HUGS))))) I hope everything slows down for you.