Surgery date.....*trig*

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Surgery date.....*trig*
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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 12:59pm

Well i got what i asked for and now im a wreck! surgery date is June 10th. im very nervous and aggitated and can't stop shaking. my gyn told me that the surgery is very dangerous and asked me if i was sure this is what i wanted. i said yes, im tired of living like this, all this pain and bloating. it triggers so many of my BP episodes like right now. I really need this hysterectomy but now im terrified. my pyschic friend told me that they might run into some trouble while im under. i know this is the right thing to do and i really want this. Please ,please please say a prayer for me!

i got what i asked for and now i feel like a fool for being nervous!

valerie

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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 1:27pm

Hi Valerie,


I will say a bunch of prayers for you. Try to not dwell on the surgery. I know that is next to impossible to do, but try to do it.

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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 1:43pm

Lots of prayers for you for a great surgery and speedy recovery.

Missy

 
 
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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 2:08pm
Valerie, you are far from a fool darlin'. It's okay to be nervous. I'm hoping that maybe your friend is still off a little on the prediction. I totally believe in those things, but they aren't always 100%. Maybe she senses something other than the surgery and it isn't coming in clear. I just know in my heart that you will be fine. This is what you need, endo pain can be so severe and some of the worst pain in the world. This may be the way for you to be stable forever!
Love and Hugs!
Carla
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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 2:16pm

((((Valerie))))


We will all be praying for you and sending you good healing vibes. My mom had this done for the same reasons (she was literally 45 minutes from death it was so severe) about 7 years ago. She didn't have any complications that I know of, but it's still a big deal. You are right to be nervous. However, please listen!, don't let that nervousness stop you from taking care of yourself and doing what needs to be done. Before any major surgery, you should make sure your will/living will is up to date. Make sure you journal as much as you need and write letters to those you love. Not final letters, but just letters saying what you might otherwise have a hard time saying to them in person. Honestly, I think you're friend is right. I'm psychic, too, and I see the same thing when I think about this. However, something she may not yet have seen: the loss of blood will be a good thing. That blood wasn't healthy anymore, but the blood they're going to put into you will be healthy and help you recover so much better than you would otherwise. It's not going to be life-threatening at all. It will be unexpected, but under control at all times. What blood type do you have? For some reason I see AB?? (I'm not always on about blood types, but sometimes I get it right. You're lucky because AB types can use O+ types in transfusions. VERY common type!) This is going to be a GREAT thing for you in the end. Please just journal, and post, and do whatever you need to, to calm down and use this time to prepare.


We love you and want to make sure you are happy and healthy. You're working on the healthy thing now, and we'd like to help you work on the happy thing. Please just take care and post as much as you feel a need to.

~ Aislinn

~ Aislinn
 
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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 3:01pm

Aislinn, i am also psyhic so you know you can never see your own future. my friend mel says that i will be okay but she also says that i will see my mother, who is deseased, tell me that its not my time to go. i know it sounds crazy but if i do have a near death experience and see my mother,that i will come back stronger (psychic wise). im glad to hear from you that i will be fine, mel said that too. she said i will be under a looong time due to complications and that i should quit smoking NOW!

its great to hear that someone else has the "shine" lol!

i thank you so much for your response, it is much appreciated. i'll try not to worry (thats like asking a bird not to fly!) had to take a clonazapam to calm down.

im sending you lots of love and peace

valerie

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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 3:12pm

thank you carla! you are so sweet! as long as i have you guys, i know i'll be okay. of course now im pacing all over the house! my dog is following me! i guess hes asking "whats wrong NOW mommy!" whenever i cry (which is about every other second) he comes running and lays his head on my lap. i love the furry guy!

ive had endo half of my life and too many surgeries to count. thats what makes this surgery so difficult, all the scar tissue left from those surgeries. doc said they might have to remove some bowel and repair bladder damage. also because of scarring, they might now be able to remove everything, especially if tubes are stuck to lower bowel ( know, TMI!!)

Mel did say that i would be fine but in alot of pain afterwards. cant be any worse that the pain that i go thru daily. (i hope)

Im sending you power and strength to get you over all your hurdles.

much love,

valerie

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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 3:20pm

I will definately contact you! i thank you for your kind words. just talking with you guys makes me feel so much stronger and so much calmer! lol!

i dont know if i have IM not too computer savy. but i will email you whenever i feel a flip out comming on and even if i dont (smile)

i will definately let everyone know if i need to extra support cause i feel a breakdown comming on. you know how you can always tell?

im sending you hugs and white light for healing

valerie