Am I the only one not (trigs)

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Am I the only one not (trigs)
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Thu, 05-19-2005 - 11:45am

honest with thier pdoc? I have not told pdoc about SI things I have thought about/done. I have not told her about a past suicide attempt or urges in the recent past. Plus, I probably am on the verge of an ED (laxatives and binging). I am calling today and trying to make myself tell her all of this. I am so scared of being committed. I don't know if I can do it. Dh knows most of it, but thinks I have told the doctor, I assume. I know I need to be honest with her but I am so scared.

Please tell me I am worried for nothing.

Missy

 
 
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Thu, 05-19-2005 - 11:57am

Missy,

I understand you are scared to tell your pdoc all your issues. If you don't open up and be honest about everything then your pdoc isn't going to be able to help you the way you need to be helped. I know it is scary but it would be in your best interest to tell her. Your not alone in your problems. There are others here that have ED's and SI problems. I too have tried suicide and I understand where you are coming from. I am glad you are posting here because you will find support here from very good people. Hang in there hon and be brave so you can get the help you deserve and I am sure you want. I will be thinking about you and looking for your post on how it went with your pdoc.

~Tina~

 
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Thu, 05-19-2005 - 12:57pm

Missy:

I have the same issue when I see my pdoc. My previous one I was NEVER honest with and told only what I thought they wanted to hear. Needless to say, I didn't get much help there! With this pdoc, I have made a point that I will ALWAYS be honest about EVERYTHING. As for being committed, even with the ED and SI factored in, you aren't likely to be committed. I have had detailed discussioned with my pdoc about suicidal thoughts and the attempts I had in the past and as long as you aren't in danger of following through on them (or of harming others) they aren't going to force you into a hospital.

One word of caution for you - please try to break your habit of using the laxatives (or if you are purging any other way). You could deplete the fluid levels in your body which your meds need and throw your moods off. Be very careful with this because with some meds (lithium for example) it can be very serious if you become dehydrated.

If you KNOW you can't follow through with telling pdoc everything, write it all down and hand it to him. That way, you know you are saying it exactly the way you want to, and you can't back out once you give them the paper.

Take care of you!
Tracey

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Fri, 05-20-2005 - 2:43am

Missy

You're worried for nothing :)

No, seriously I think you are. I haven't gotten into this with my current p/tdoc. Last time I was in therapy though, ED, SI and SU were all prominent issues in my life and therapy. I never got committed.

Hang in there. Honesty is best, although I don't think you were being dishonest unless you were answering falsely to questions directly about that. If you just haven't talked about that, don't even get down on yourself about being honest or not. I haven't told my tdoc about SA or probably many other things.

I hope you were able to make the call. Let me know how it went.

Hugs and love,

Amanda

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Fri, 05-20-2005 - 10:31am

missy,


i have to agree with everyone else here. in order for the pdoc to truly help you, it is necessary to convey the information to him/her somehow. write it in a letter, as was suggested, send an e-mail, if pdoc has an answering machine, call after hours and leave a message. i also don't think you will be hospitalized unless you are currently in danger of harming yourself or others.


not long ago, i had the exact same fear of being committed involuntarily for si and sa issues, in addition to the fact that i was not eating or sleeping. the ladies here were a wonderful source of support, and continue to be.


fortunately this time around i have an excellent pdoc that i can be honest with and upfront about some things. it took me a long time to tell him i was continually paranoid but that was due more to not knowing it wasn't "normal" than being afraid of what he would do. previously, however, i had a pdoc and several tdocs in the span of 3 years that i didn't really trust and i held back a lot of information and as a result, the level of my care was lowered. it has definitely been a learning experience figuring out that there are actually people i can trust and be upfront with. i'm still having ups and downs but they aren't as severe or lengthy as they once were. pdoc is finally getting my 'cocktail' narrowed down and i can finally see that the meds are helping, and being hospitalized is no longer an issue, as long as i don't take a severe turn for the worse. but if i hadn't been honest with him, i still wouldn't be on the right meds and still suffering long term highs and lows.


as i said in the beginning, what you have been told by many others, it is important to be upfront with pdoc. if you can't do it face to face, then write a letter to him/her. this is more for your benefit than pdocs. we are here to support you through this. hang in there.


traci

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Fri, 05-20-2005 - 2:03pm

Missy,


As you can well see by now you are not alone in this. I agree with all the others, your dr can't help you if you aren't honest. When I saw my former tdoc for the last time and told him what my new pdoc said about my dx he was surprised but it's only because I was never totally honest with him. When it came to telling my new pdoc about my SI habits I simply rolled up my sleeve. I said nothing, just showed her. I also took dh with me to that appt not only for support but for him to make sure I was honest with her. I can understand your fear but if you trust in your dr it'll be ok.


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