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Fri, 05-20-2005 - 2:04pm
Hi, I am Becca, wife of five years to David, mother to Bryce, Haiely and Cheyenne.
I have been suffering with something for about fifteen years now and I am finally ready and able to say I have a problem that needs help. Problem is.. I don't know what my problem is. I want to learn morme about mental health and bi-polar and manic depression. It seems that from what I have read they are one and the same to a certain exsent. My "issues" are really affectin my family. I get very angry and sad for no reason. My highs and lows are very extreme. Last night was my fifth wedding annerviersy. It was awesome. I was in a great mood until I got up this morning and got going. every thing just seemed to go wrong, I got angry, and started crying for no reason. Frusterated by everything. My kids, my life, my cats, my dog, my bird. yes the bird.. poor lonely little thing, his mate passed yesterday and he is sad which makes me cry. ugh. I just want to feel normal and not fly off the handle at every little thing. It is hard for me to put this into words and even typing it i want to cry. My four and half year old son is sitting next to me talking about shark boy and lava girl (?) who they are i do not know but he wants to know why mommy cries all of the time.. example now. I just need some help. someone to talk to. I am sorry I am now rambling. This started as a question and has turnted into a rambleing post about nothing. thank you all for listening to me I really needed it very badly.
Becca.
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Registered: 09-21-2003
Fri, 05-20-2005 - 2:56pm

(((Becca))))

So sorry to hear that you're having a hard day. I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar II (cyclothymia). Bipolar is the new term for Manic Depression. The first thing you need to do is see a Psychiatrist and/or Psychologist (therapist). One of these doctors can diagnose you and possibly put you on some medication that will help stabilize your moods. I understand the extreme highs and lows. The other night I was out shopping with my best friend, laughing 'til my sides hurt. Then...I get home and my husband is fussing at me -- I cried myself to sleep.

If you need to talk, these gals here on the board are wonderful.

You've made the first step. You realize that something isn't right and you want help.

HUGS

Cheri

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Registered: 06-10-2003
Fri, 05-20-2005 - 2:56pm

Hi Becca,

None of us on this board can tell you if you are bipolar (and yes, it's the same thing as manic depression) only a doctor can determine that for you.

But your symptoms sure sound familiar and yes, you could be on the right track in your reading. There are a lot of good web-sites relating to bipolar and there is even a short 'test' on this site which can give some something to take with you to see a doctor.

A good diagnosis is important and there are tons of medications out there which may be able to help you.

Post anytime with questions. Everyone on this board is very supportive and can answer questions you might have.

Catherine

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Fri, 05-20-2005 - 4:01pm
I agree with the other two posts. Welcome here and post all you want. Vent if you need to, I do a LOT. (((((HUGS))))) I hope you find a good doctor to help you through what you are going through.
Carla
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Registered: 09-01-2004
Sun, 05-22-2005 - 10:00pm

Becca,


Welcome to the board, I'm glad you found us!