Very depressed...... *trig*
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| Mon, 05-23-2005 - 5:42pm |
Im so very sad. i know why and i don't know why you know what i mean? im in so much darn pain number one. i ran out or pain meds too soon and cant get any till next week. but its not just that. i cant put my finger on it. ive been so happy and joyful and full of myself for like a week and a half, i guess this is my crash. ive been shopping behind DH back and now im in a panic! i gave him all my credit cards and went behind his back and got another one (hangs head in shame) and even ordered stuff on it. i borrowed money from MIL for when the bill comes (already wore the stuff) so i can pay off behind DH back and give that card to MIL. "what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to decive" Poe sure got that one right. so of coarse this triggers my OCD, running back and forth to the front door checking to see if box is there......geez
I hate to keep harking on my surgery but thats been on my mind to, not to far off now
and it looks like im gonna have trouble getter medical clearance from my pdoc and tdoc. they don't think i'll be able to handle the surgery mentaly which is bull because it's the pain that triggers most of my episodes. so now on top of that i have to convence these yo-yo's its too my benifit to have the surgery and i don't have much time to do so.
im just yappin, i dont know what the heck im talking about
valerie

Valerie,
I know what you mean about the spending.