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I'm in denial
| Wed, 05-25-2005 - 9:58pm |
I've been wondering what's wrong with me. I've even asked DH what he thought. I feel so out of sorts. It's no one major thing. I know I must still be in denial about being bp. I want to go off my meds. I thought I had moved out of this denial stage but I haven't. I guess it's a good thing I go to pdoc Friday. I'm rambling but wanted to share.
Vista
Vista


Hi Vista,Welcome to the bipoar board!!!
Denial is the beginning of finding out you are BP. No one wants to be BP. The thing is you need your meds. They will help you be stablized. I know at times we feel all better like we don't need our meds but that is when we need to keep taking them because that means they are working...unless we are real manic and then we need to call our doc and have our meds adjusted.
How long have you known you are BP?
How long have you been on meds?
Believe me it is a good thing to stay on your meds and stopping them just borrows trouble. Save yourself from the trouble and stick with your meds.
You can come here and vent and share anytime - that is why we are here.
Hang in there,
Tina~
Hey Vista!
You're not alone Vista, I've been in denial the past couple of weeks, I don't want to take my meds anymore either. I'm not sure what's causing that and I remember when I was first dx, I thought why would people want to go off of their meds and here I am in that exact spot.
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hi vista ~ i can also relate to the denial. when pdoc first started considering the possibility that i'm bp i freaked out. growing up manic/depressive illness (now called bipolar) was a very 'bad' disease to have and they would "lock you up and throw away the key," yadda, yadda, yadda.....and i told tdoc that if that diagnosis is correct i was screwed for life, etc.
tdoc and pdoc both explained to me how treatable bp is and that my fears were unfounded. that once i got on the right meds, and continued with therapy i would be just as "normal" as everyone else is.
Well, denial still creeps in here and there ~ especially when a depressive episode sets in ~ but pdoc has finally found the right meds (i think) and now he just needs to find the right dosage. and tdoc, despite my insurance co. being a p.i.a. , continues to see me, currently twice a week, to get me back on track. i know my episodes are shorter now than they were back in december. and there has been several times where i've thought "i'm better, there's no need for the meds," but thanks to the wonderful ladies here, an excellent tdoc and an excellent pdoc i've managed to stay on track.
what everyone else has said is so true. when you think you are better and don't need your meds any longer, that is when you need them the most. hang in there and keep posting. we are here for you and we deifnitely understand what you are going through. take care of yourself.
hugs,
traci
Vista
Seems to be the common issue right now :)
I am also at the point where I think I'm at the middle. It's not great or bad. I'm kind of flat but I guess that's the mid point and then i think welll isn't this me normally then I can go off meds.
I don't know. I am so tempted to but I'm trying to be good. This will be a good test to see if this really is stable because of the meds or just a stable phase or not stable at all. I guess one advantage to not having my 2 week pdoc appt for 6 weeks is I have more time to study my mood
Love to all
Amanda