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| Thu, 06-02-2005 - 8:03pm |
i know this isnt the endo board but i havent been there in a long while and ive established so many friendships here.
i am so tired of living like this!!!! im tired of the pain, tired of the bloating, tired of not fitting in ANY of my clothes because of the bloating. i cant walk, can't sit, theres so many things i just cant do like live a normal life. all this has kicked off an episode that has lasted since i found out yesterday they cancelled my surgery. my surgeon is leaving the practice. so now i have to start over again with another doctor. i know god makes no mistakes and i will have my surgery eventually but darnit i was looking forward to my surgery next week. i cant stop crying and were having guests staying over this weekend.... i can't look in the mirror all i see is a big disgusting big bellied pig and this time last year i looked great, hardly any pain.
i just want to scream! i feel like preforming the darn surgery on myself, right in the (*&^% kitchen! im so miserable so sad. im sitting here typing looking down at my swollen belly and its just aches and aches. somebody PLEASE pray for me i don't think i can take much more of this! and to think, just last week i was scared to death of having the surgery, if i only knew...
valerie

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((((hugs))) you are in my prayers, that you will get the surgery. I know all about that doctor change thing. My ob left the practice so me being 28 wks and 3 days I have to find a new doctor.
My daughters pediatrician also left the practice. So I sorta know how you feel but I can only imagine the pain you are in because my mom had a hystorectomy for the same thing.
love,
Melissa
Valerie --
I am so sorry to hear about your latest setback. I hope you can find a good surgeon and you won't have to wait so long to get the ball rolling.
Hugs and prayers to you!
Cheri
(((((Valerie)))))
I am so sorry to hear about the reschedule. I wish you all the positive vibes and prayers the world can give and as little pain as is humanly (or supernaturally ?) possible.
Hang in there.
Love,
Amanda
tHANK YOU MELISSA! i feel a little better today. not so much depressed as resigned. ive come to the realization that i cant change jack so i might as well just deal with it. doesnt feel sometimes that the world just keeps throwing crap at you and you have to bob and weave to avoid them. sometimes i just get so tired of dancing around and ducking BS for once i just want to stand still and just BE.
ironically, i see me new doc. on the day that my surgery was to be done. hardy har har. im thru just thru.
thank you for all your support.
valerie
thank you Cheri, yout positive prayers and thoughts are much apprieciated. i need all the vibes i can get. im much better today. what can i do.......NOTHING. i just hope that my new surgery date is very soon. "Lifes a #@!$ and then you die" isn't that what they say? lol!
Oh, let me go off top for a second, i took my doggie to the groomers yesterday ( He's a Soft Coated Wheaton Terrier) well i called first and asked them if they knew how to give a wheaton cut, they said yes. i sent my doggie along with DH to groomers with a WHEATON BOOK explaining how to do the cut, just in case. DH comes home with the book saying they said they didnt need the book. Well, when DH came home with my baby they TOTALLY HACKED HIM UP!! i was furious!! and then they charged us $65! DH begged me not to call them up because he KNOWS how i can get (i'm a rager) i'm taking my baby BACK tonite and someone gonna have to answer for this thats for sure!
Whew! got *that* out of my system...
well anyway, thanks much for your response!
valerie
Thank you Amanda your always johnny on the spot! your all over the place! healing all wounds, holding hands, offering kind words, like a triage nurse! come to think of it, BP is like a battlefield with land mines buried who knows where. you know i'll be keeping you up to date with the continuing saga of the wonderful world of Valerie, if you don't mind! i will also pray for you because someone as kind as you are, sometimes people forget that you have your problems and sometimes you need someone to lean on too
Well i'll stop yappin" and i'll leave you with this, being an angel is a dirty job being a human is worse.
may god continue to shine his light on you and anwser all your prayers
valerie
Hey cheri! im so proud of myself! i called the groomers and told them how i wasnt happy with Giffords cut and i didn't scream at them! i talked nicely and explained how i wasnt satisfied and they told me to bring him back and they would repair any mistakes that were made. so he's back at the groomers getting his hair redone (tee hee!)
talk to ya later!
valerie
Valerie,
I'm so sorry that your doctor is leaving!!! It just isn't fair. Hopefully you'll find a great surgeon who wastes no time and you will be up and running soon.
I do not know you personally, but you ARE a BEAUTIFUL PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Never forget that.
Hugs & Hope
Carla
CARLA!! CARLA!!CARLA!! WOOHOO!! LOL!
valerie
Awww, thanks (((((Valerie)))))
You probably don't even realize how sweet your words are but the put a smile on my face and warmed my heart. Thanks for making my day!
Of course I want to hear the continuing saga, always! Don't worry about yappin' too much, I love to listen.
Love,
Amanda
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