i don't know if i can take ..... trig

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Registered: 01-06-2005
i don't know if i can take ..... trig
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Thu, 06-02-2005 - 8:03pm

i know this isnt the endo board but i havent been there in a long while and ive established so many friendships here.

i am so tired of living like this!!!! im tired of the pain, tired of the bloating, tired of not fitting in ANY of my clothes because of the bloating. i cant walk, can't sit, theres so many things i just cant do like live a normal life. all this has kicked off an episode that has lasted since i found out yesterday they cancelled my surgery. my surgeon is leaving the practice. so now i have to start over again with another doctor. i know god makes no mistakes and i will have my surgery eventually but darnit i was looking forward to my surgery next week. i cant stop crying and were having guests staying over this weekend.... i can't look in the mirror all i see is a big disgusting big bellied pig and this time last year i looked great, hardly any pain.

i just want to scream! i feel like preforming the darn surgery on myself, right in the (*&^% kitchen! im so miserable so sad. im sitting here typing looking down at my swollen belly and its just aches and aches. somebody PLEASE pray for me i don't think i can take much more of this! and to think, just last week i was scared to death of having the surgery, if i only knew...

valerie

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 06-06-2005 - 9:21am

I know I am late in posting, but hey. I am sorry that you are in pain. I can't believe that you got so close to your surgery date and they canceled it. That sucks big time. Hopefully they will get you scheduled pronto and you can finally be done with the pain you are in.


Vent away we are here for you.
Take care.


Love and hugs,

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