Very Negative Bad Day....trigs

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Very Negative Bad Day....trigs
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Mon, 06-06-2005 - 4:17pm

UGH...my mood is horrible today, guys.

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Mon, 06-06-2005 - 8:18pm

Keli,

I'm sort of new here and I don't think we've spoken before, but I just read you two posts and it sounded like you were having a bad day. Well, I don't have any magic words for you. Just that I know (to an extent) how you are feeling and that this too, shall pass... I know from reading some of your other posts that you are a very strong person.

I'm sorry you've been having bad days and challenges. I, too, seem to have lost all my self esteem and have gained a lot of weight lately. I was just thinking today that I can actually remember the four days in my life when I felt pretty thin... LOL! I've never been petite, but on those few occasions (once when I was so depressed I couldn't eat) I've actually lost some weight. I can't seem to ever keep it off, so I know what a struggle and an issue it is.

I'm starting to think though, that stable and chubby is better then depressed and thin and I'm learning to live with the weight (even bought some clothes that actually fit, instead of trying to squeeze into my old stuff).

Just know that you are beautiful just the way you are and the person inside is what matters most. Besides models and such are just that... they are not the norm... If we all looked like that, then they wouldn't make the big bucks.

Sorry if this post is too long... I tend to ramble...

Catherine

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Tue, 06-07-2005 - 5:51am

(((((Keli)))))


Hi hon.

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Tue, 06-07-2005 - 1:39pm

Whats this talk i hear! stop it right now! You *are* beautiful, think of al the people you help. having a beautiful soul will get you so much farther in life. heck, we were all knock outs at one time or another! and i refuse to believe that you *still* aren't one. there all many stages of beauty, and i'll take the beauty of maturity, wealth of knowlege and a kind and forgiving heart over that physical stuff.

as for the weight, take your time, dont punish yourself for it. heck im no twig either but my DH loves me, my family loves me and a wonderful circle of friends and i bet you do too. do you think they care what you look like? like i said, you have a BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT and thats what people see, the ones that matter anyway. we all have our bad days, weeks, months, i still remember your post last week and how great you sounded! you *will* have those days again. try not to be sad, i know its hard. thats whats great about this board, we can lift each other up when we have these really bad days. Just like you do for so many people. in the mean time, my prayer to you is;

strength
patience
and a strong sense of self
may God grant you ALL these things

valerie