New week, new roll call...
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| Wed, 06-08-2005 - 2:39pm |
Last week's is still going and going lol. But I though I'd start a new thread. I hope you don't mind.
So let's hear from you all! What's going on this past week? And, how about what are you most proud of right now?
Amanda here, still from Ontario. :) 24 yrs old and fairly new at the bp thing, although I'm pretty sure I've been suffering from it since my teens. Still not sure about the dx with current pdoc though. She hasn't made up her mind *rolls eyes* shizoaffective, bipolar, borderline. Whatever, I don't care.
So, this past week I didn't do much but work. I did finish a couple exams for my correspondence course work. And today was my convocation from my B.A. in Religious Studies. That would me be my proudest thing too right now. No one can understand how hard it was and how much more of an achievement that makes this. I wasn't sure I would graduate. This is the first year that I have ever passed all my courses. Unfortunately, my family doesn't see this as a good thing, just that I need a much better average and a lot more volunteer if I want to get into teacher's college. I don't have time, energy or mental capacity for that...plus having to work to pay for school.
Well, enough of my rambling
Amanda


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hi,
Yes we get wic but that is about it. Everyone says he makes too much. Well if he makes to much why are we living pay to pay. *shrug*
Melissa
hi,
beth here...
i've been stable for a whole week now, hooray for me!!!
I'm starting to LOSE it!!!!
Hi, it's been a pretty long time since I last checked in...sorry about that. Amanda, many congrats on your convocation...that's wonderful! :)
Rose here, also 24, also not sure about a diagnosis...currently just being treated for depression. Had ECT recently, and I'm glad to say my memory has gotten better lately... although I think there will always be a few weeks in my past that stay totally fuzzy! That didn't seem to help my mood much, I didn't think...
But over the past few days, I have gotten much more energetic...a motor-mouth on the phone with my mom, when before I couldn't bring myself to do much more than grunt! Just started a summer research job 2 days ago...a bit menial, but at least busy, which is good...I've tried to keep busy enough that I haven't had too much time to think.
Still don't think I'm feeling all that good, though...I was for a day or so, but then got into this funk...which is still here...extremely irritated by everything and everyone, and just want to be left alone (as I told my mom, which I regret doing!). I literally won't answer my phone and will curse at it when it rings, even when it's my best friend. Not answering emails either. Who knows what that's all about?!
So this post is my effort at trying to reach out a little again. And I did go out with my friend last night and ended up acting surprisingly energetic...although I haven't managed to get over my general irritability. Ugh, and I'm not feeling too great physically...never had a bladder infection before, but I imagine this is what one feels like! (sorry, way too much info, just had to vent!).
Oops, more than a quick update there, sorry...guess once I get started, it's hard to stop. Hope you all are doing OK...haven't gotten a chance to read through the roll call yet, but I will.
Hugs,
Rose
Edit: Oops, forgot to say what I'm proud of. Hard question! I guess making it through the first few days of this job when I didn't think I'd be able to...
Edited 6/9/2005 10:43 pm ET ET by rosa444
((Catherine)) I don't know if you're new or I just missed you, but welcome.
It's great to hear that you're in the "normal" range. I totally know what you mean about meds. I'm sure we all do. I constantly have to remind myself that when I feel like I don't need meds that's when I should stay on them the most because it means they are working!
Hugs,
Amanda
((Melissa))
Hugs and welcome (or sorry if I missed you earlier).
I'm sorry that you are having such a roller coaster ride right now and I hope that things even out for you.
I hope that you will somehow be provided with all that you need. Is there mother's allowance or something like that? As far as work goes, if you are in good shape you should be able to work, but you're right, people may be reluctant to hire you. If it's any consolation, I'd hire you :) Are you planning on working after the baby is born? Can you hold out on getting a job until then?
You're in my thoughts.
Amanda
Hi ((Donna))
I do hope it is the meds that are working. Those things you mentioned can bum us out, even if we are stable. I know what you mean about not knowing what normal is. I mentioned this to my tdoc this week. I said, "If this is 'normal' then it's pretty boring" She said that's normal for people used to experiencing mania. It's true, I have probably identified mania as being happy, and it's not. At least, not only.
I guess normal is somewhere in the middle of fast and slow, miserable and euphoric. If you are there hang in there and you will probably get used to it. You can also do things to make yourself happy. Don't forget to take care of you. Try stress management techniques like yoga and meditation to deal with things like work, traffic and birthdays.
Then again, stop being bummed out by your birthday and start telling yourself that it's one more reason to celebrate. It's not about being older. Age is just a number. Just think of it as a day to celebrate yourself.
I don't remember where I posted the self-soothing and nurturing techniques but I will find it and put a link here soon.
Take care,
Amanda
((Kirche))
Good job on making it through without the lorazepam. I know how hard that can be sometimes. And, it's awesome that you are finding your motivation. Hold on to that.
Amanda
Hi ((Missy))
You should definately be proud of all the work you are putting in with the kids home and trying to keep the house together. And way to go on the weight loss too.
I know how you feel, not knowing whether you are cycling or not. I think that might be my most recent update (aside from replies) - that I don't know how I'm feeling. AF could definately have something to do with it. Also, are the meds new?
Take care,
Amanda
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