New week, new roll call...

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New week, new roll call...
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Wed, 06-08-2005 - 2:39pm

Last week's is still going and going lol. But I though I'd start a new thread. I hope you don't mind.

So let's hear from you all! What's going on this past week? And, how about what are you most proud of right now?

Amanda here, still from Ontario. :) 24 yrs old and fairly new at the bp thing, although I'm pretty sure I've been suffering from it since my teens. Still not sure about the dx with current pdoc though. She hasn't made up her mind *rolls eyes* shizoaffective, bipolar, borderline. Whatever, I don't care.

So, this past week I didn't do much but work. I did finish a couple exams for my correspondence course work. And today was my convocation from my B.A. in Religious Studies. That would me be my proudest thing too right now. No one can understand how hard it was and how much more of an achievement that makes this. I wasn't sure I would graduate. This is the first year that I have ever passed all my courses. Unfortunately, my family doesn't see this as a good thing, just that I need a much better average and a lot more volunteer if I want to get into teacher's college. I don't have time, energy or mental capacity for that...plus having to work to pay for school.

Well, enough of my rambling

Amanda

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Sat, 06-11-2005 - 5:58pm
Amanda, yep my weight battle is due to meds. I had gained 35 pounds from pregnancy but had lost 26 of those pounds 7 weeks post partum. Since I was put on meds I've gained 21 pounds back. I'm on depakote and symbyax (mix of prozac and zyprex.)
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Sat, 06-11-2005 - 6:30pm

Rose,


It sounds like you are doing much better.

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Sat, 06-11-2005 - 6:41pm

Thanks Amanda.

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Sat, 06-11-2005 - 9:57pm

Thanks so much, Morgaine...I hadn't really thought about it, but your post did help me realize that I do seem better (even though I've had my moments of being overwhelmed by some pretty dark thoughts). I think having the structure of a daily job is helping a good bit...I don't have as much time to mull things over and get depressed.

But as for being stable, I'm still wondering about that...I'm going to try to get myself a little more under control...but just today, my irritation seems to have slowly given way to HAPPY! I'm trying to convince myself not to call one of my friends because I know I may seem just a little odd, given my recent irritation and quietness...but I am loving everything right now...I feel like I'm close to crying out of joy instead of sadness!

OK, breathing, breathing...sorry...thanks for your post...I hope you're OK too. I'm going to try to be better about replying to others' posts here instead of always posting about myself. Thanks!

Rose

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Fri, 06-17-2005 - 12:57am

Hi Erin,

Sorry it took awhile. I guess time has flown by since camp last week! I replied to everyone, so I didn't want you to think that I didn't want to reply. I just haven't been here!

Way to go on getting through your probation at work. (and the weight). I wanted Topamax, but my doc didn't give it to me. I think that it may not be approved in Canada for mania.

I on the other hand get Epival (depakote/valproic acid/divalproex sodium) which is a weight gain drug. Yay me *scrunched up sarcastic face*

Continued good luck in all you do!

Amanda

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Fri, 06-17-2005 - 12:59am

Thanks ((Val))

*blushes* I'll keep painting but that doesn't mean I like it :P haha

Amanda

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Fri, 06-17-2005 - 1:03am

(((Vista)))

You poor poor thing! Depakote and symbyax?! Is your doc on crack?! lol

I've got depakote too. I've gained 15 at my current weight. I had gained a lot and freaked out, hitting my highest weight in 8 years. I was able to lose most of it but as soon as I stopped watching what I ate I gained it back. So here we go again... :(

We're all in this together

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Fri, 06-17-2005 - 1:05am

((Morgaine))

Sounds like you have a solid plan ahead of you. Good luck with avoiding alcohol (not my strong point!) What herbs and vitamins are in the combo?

Good luck!

Love,
Amanda

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Fri, 06-17-2005 - 10:15pm

Geez Amanda.

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Sat, 06-18-2005 - 6:34pm

Hi, it's been a while...just wanted to stop by and say hi. Morgaine, I can relate on the weight gain...although mine may be more due to my food "issues," I've gained several pounds lately and am not enjoying trying to find the few clothes in my closet that still fit!

My quick update...right now I'm doing summer research...pretty interesting project, but mostly data entry, so my wrists are getting pretty painful. Mood-wise, I hadn't been doing well recently at all, didn't seem to be any better since the ECT, which was disappointing. Couldn't even take the trash out last week...my bedroom was literally smelly and unsanitary...gross.

But as has happened before, right now I'm more confused about my mood than anything. Fell asleep for a "nap" yesterday and woke up 14 hours later this morning...and today I'm energetic and a little hyper for the first time in a while.

I have another appointment with my psychiatrist on Tuesday, but don't really know what to say. Last time, I explained how I'd been feeling really down...but at the end, she told me that I "looked good" and she wasn't going to change my meds. So who knows? I don't really know that I need to see a psychiatrist anymore anyway since I've been on the same meds for a long time...and I need to stay on them anyway because they are a godsend for my migraines and fibromyalgia (neither of which is usually a huge problem now).

So that's me...I hope you all are doing OK...I haven't been checking the board lately. Have a great rest of the weekend,

Rose