Tina

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tina
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Thu, 06-09-2005 - 2:11pm

How are you?

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 06-10-2005 - 11:54am
BUMP
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Registered: 10-02-2003
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 06-10-2005 - 12:34pm

Hey there

It has been a rough week or so. I am having problems with my dd. She of course thinks I am a bad mom. She has issues with things but she deosn't want to talk to me about them. I am worried about her but she acts like I don't need to be. The whole thing about moving has been a nightmare with her. Though, she has calmed down about it some now. I have been real depressed. Laying around sleeping as much as I can and watching TV and movies. I feel like I can't do anything right. I carry alot of guilt around about being BP and not doing right by my dd. I feel I could have and should have been more strict(sp?)with her. I feel now I have let her have so much freedom that I can't take it back and she acts like she is 18 instead of 15 going on 16. I am beating myself up alot because I didn't make better choices for her. I am always scared she is going to get pregnant. I see papers laying around all the time that have names of kids she wants to have. I am afraid she will purposely get pregnant because she feels lonely.

My bf and I just got into an arguement earlier because I said I would pick his son up from school today on my way to his house for the weekend. Last night my dd asked me to go to the grocery store because she didn't have much to eat that she liked in the house. I told my bf that I wouldn't be able to pick his son up because I had to get my Rx's filled and take Jayme to the store. He wasn't doing anything and he could pick up his son but he got mad at me because I couldn't do it. So I told him that I would see him next weekend and not this weekend because of his attitude. He said I will come and get that car(which is his) and then you can go to the ____ grocery store and then he hung up on me. I haven't talked with him yet again. He makes me so mad. He always hangs that car over my head if I don't do what he wants me to do and whenever I say I won't be coming down he gets mad and says he will come and get the car though he hasn't done so yet. I just get mad because there is no reason to treat me like that. This time instead of argueing with him I just let it go and didn't call him back.

I feel like I have to please everyone around me. I'll be ok. Just having a rough time right now and feeling real down. Thanks for asking about me. You are always there thinking of others. Your a good friend.

Love ya,
Tina~