Keli!

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Registered: 07-24-2003
Keli!
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Mon, 06-13-2005 - 9:38am

I am SO sorry I didn't call this weekend, was hectic and crazy at my place! Hopefully Arlene left you completely unscathed.

My stupid apartment complex finally nailed me about the cat, so I have to fork over an extra $300 this week. Thank GOD I can afford that! Plus, only 1/2 of it is non-refundable.

Savannah fought with me tooth and nail against cleaning. I did manage to get her to clean her room 3/4 of the way, and I am going to finish it (lots of things are leaving). She hates that, but too bad.

THEN, just to top off all the fun, the stupid hamster died Friday. Savannah actually took the news fairly well. Of course, I had to replace it this weekend, even though she is now gone (wooohooo!!!) for the majority of the summer.

Hope you are doing well!!!!!
t

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: th305899
Mon, 06-13-2005 - 10:00am

Its okay you didn't call, I'm sorry I didn't call you!

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: th305899
Mon, 06-13-2005 - 10:29am

just called pdoc...we'll see what she has to say...this is getting scary, so i decided to call...uggggggggh.


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Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: th305899
Mon, 06-13-2005 - 11:44am

Ugh! That sucks that you are struggling a bit again. You'll make it through though. Let me know what pdoc says. HATE your work restricting email - have I mentioned that??

Glad you got the car fixed. As for your brother, tell him to take a flying leap. He needs a boot to the butt.

Hang in there, and if you need to, call me at work with the calling card.

T

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: th305899
Mon, 06-13-2005 - 11:51am

I totally hate the no email thing too...i don't know how to get through without you!

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Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: th305899
Mon, 06-13-2005 - 1:23pm

I am there in mind if not email :(

I know I can absolutely tell when I am on topamax and when I am not. My rages almost disappear with it.

Next time your brother calls, answer the phone. Firmly tell him that you are NOT giving him ANY money NOR are you calling your parents for him. He can pretend to be a grown up for a few minutes. If you feel up to it, threaten to call the police on him if he keeps calling....but that is your choice.

I know that his behavior is making your anxiety worse. You need to remind yourself - write it down on a post-it and stick it to your monitor if you need to - you are NOT responsible for him or his well-being. You need to take care of (in this order) yourself, Mike, Eric, and your parents. Beyond that, you are not obligated in any way, shape, or form. You have made SO much progress and if you start to give in on things like this, it will cause you to slip a bit. And maybe just say to him, you are done taking care of his problems, he is on his own. The only help you can give him is a referral to a good pdoc.

Hang in there, you WILL make it. You don't need me to tell you how strong you are, you KNOW. You have walked through the fires of hades and made it out, a few cinders here and there are not going to break you.

((HUGS))
T