Joke girl not laughing.....need shovel

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Joke girl not laughing.....need shovel
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Mon, 06-13-2005 - 7:15pm

hey every one. valerie here and not doing too great, im so very sad and depressed. i know its stupid cause i want this hysterectomy so bad but that doesn't make it anymore frightning. im trying not to be a big baby. i just don't want to end up with a colostomy bag which is a posibily. i wont claim it, everything will turn out fine right? i couldnt get anything done around the house, if i stand on my feel, my belly swells up like you wouldn't believe. i won't go any further. i sound like a broken record with this crap. thanks for listening.......again

valerie

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Mon, 06-13-2005 - 7:39pm

Valerie,


I'm sending positive thoughts your way.

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Mon, 06-13-2005 - 8:11pm

its particular in my occassion. i have alot more going on than just hysto. due to endometriosis scarring and adhesions my bladder, large intestine, tubes and ovaries are stuck together. thats what makes it so dangerous. they're concerned they may nick an artery and i may bleed out. i have scar and adhesions *everywhere* down there due to endo and previous myomectomies. the last myomectomy i had, it took them three hours just to cut me open due to scar tissue and that was 9 yrs ago. god only knows whats brewin' down there now. i had to beg to get them to do this, *they* said it was dangerous. i said frig you! i can't take the pain anymore!

there is a strong possibility of a catheter. small chance of colostomy and only temporary.

im just hoping for the best.

valerie

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Mon, 06-13-2005 - 8:55pm

I see.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 06-14-2005 - 12:04pm

Valerie,


HUGS.

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Tue, 06-14-2005 - 6:47pm

Keli, i wish i could email you in private. there is something i want to know. you know im a mess mentally, paranoid, OCD....there is something i've been wanting to ask you for a while now.......Ok......here it goes....... Are we okay?

valerie

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Tue, 06-14-2005 - 9:24pm

Valerie,


Certainly I'm not Keli but, nevertheless, I feel the need to interject my opinion :-).

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Tue, 06-14-2005 - 10:04pm

Hi Morgaine, hey, i agree with you %100 im constantly being reminded how talented and smart i am and why arent i doing something with it and so and so on. its just that my creative juices havent been flowing in a number of years now. i get these really great ideas that never come to fruition and i know its part of the BP thing.

but the reason i was asking Keli if we were ok, i meant was she and i okay! lol! its about something that happened a while ago but i feel a shift you know what i mean? im a very intuitive person (which is no fun at all) and i feel somethings afoot. but then again, im so friggin paranoid who knows!

but thanks for your response anyway! i love it when you get really deep!

valerie