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Paranoid - trigs
| Wed, 06-15-2005 - 8:25pm |
DH left this morning on the longest business trip he's ever taken (since I met him about 2 years ago that is).
| Wed, 06-15-2005 - 8:25pm |
DH left this morning on the longest business trip he's ever taken (since I met him about 2 years ago that is).
I'm sorry I don't have any good advice. One of my symptoms is paranoia also. I'll find it hard to do everyday things like call out for pizza because I think people are going to be talking about me.
Vista
Argh!
You are preachin to the choir. every job i've had i was paranoid. i thought everyone was talking about me and i became very combative. once i told a manager that i would burn her house down! (her DH was a fireman) that almost cost me my job, i had to beg to keep it which secretly pissed me off even further because im not a groveler. ive had to change departments the whole nine yards.
My father was very abusive and he cheated on my mom. i mean he had his women calling the house, not coming home for days and when he did come home he would beat my mom and TRY to beat me. i fought back i was determined not to be bullied. because of this life,every man ive ever dated i damned near drove myself nuts worrying. if he wasnt in my direct vision, hes with somebody else. im taking sniffin clothing checking pockets, i was a mess. most of the time i drove them away because i was "nuts" in their eyes and i guess they were pretty much on target! still to this day, i think people are out to get me, nobody likes me its exausting. its something that im trying really hard to work out, in some sence (sp), it may be worse than my BP at times. One thing i can say, my DH has NEVER cheated on me! we do everything together and he comes straight home from work! lol! he travels alot for his job also and when hes away, he calls 3 times a day to check on me (make sure im not swinging from the rafters)
i also have a hard time dealing with certain types of people. its hard when you can't just shut them out. sometimes if i just see this person i would start to hyperventalate or go into a rage and have to go to the ladies room to calm down. for some reason, i seem to rub some folks the wrong way. my friends say its jealousy and envy. i would try so hard to get these %$#@ to like me! and get talked about behind my back. i am doing much better now than in my 20s early 30s. but that darn paranoria seems to want to hang around. im working on that with tdoc. if somethings missing in the house, somebody stole it, then, id find it later and feel like an idiot..
ive rambled enough! YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! lol
if you get too paranoid on the board email me to talk more private LOL
omeomi_9@hotmail.com
Morgaine,
I used to be very paranoid.
Thanks for the med tip.
My childhood was not as looney as yours but it had its moments.