I am still not doing too well. I am starting to have suicidal thoughts. I don't think I will act on them but I am just tired of feeling this way.I keep having thoughts of how I would do it. My pdoc is away on vacation and there is no one to take his place while he is gone. He should be back next week. I went to see my tdoc yesterday and she had an emergency so I din't get to see her.
Why can't I be satisfied with my life and just go on and except things for the way they are. I keep feeling like something is missing. I have people around me that love me and I still feel bad. Why is that? I feel so lonely and scared. I keep worrying about my future and finances for when I am old and gray. Will I survive then. I keep obsessing about everything that my mind will put out there. I am tired of thinking. This is so frustrating. I have been trying to sleep alot so I don't have to face the day, but I can only sleep so much. I have to go grocery shopping for my mom and I don't feel like it at all and I have to push myself. Then tomorrow I have to take her to the doctors. I don't mind doing things for my mom. Right now I just don't feel like doing anything.
Hey keli- Trigs
I am still not doing too well. I am starting to have suicidal thoughts. I don't think I will act on them but I am just tired of feeling this way.I keep having thoughts of how I would do it. My pdoc is away on vacation and there is no one to take his place while he is gone. He should be back next week. I went to see my tdoc yesterday and she had an emergency so I din't get to see her.
Why can't I be satisfied with my life and just go on and except things for the way they are. I keep feeling like something is missing. I have people around me that love me and I still feel bad. Why is that? I feel so lonely and scared. I keep worrying about my future and finances for when I am old and gray. Will I survive then. I keep obsessing about everything that my mind will put out there. I am tired of thinking. This is so frustrating. I have been trying to sleep alot so I don't have to face the day, but I can only sleep so much. I have to go grocery shopping for my mom and I don't feel like it at all and I have to push myself. Then tomorrow I have to take her to the doctors. I don't mind doing things for my mom. Right now I just don't feel like doing anything.
Hugs,
Tina~