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| Fri, 06-17-2005 - 1:27pm |
My feelings are pretty hurt. I post on here and the only person who ever responds to me is Keli. I have been feeling pretty depressed and having suicidal thoughts and it hurts when I post and there is no one who even says they feel bad I am feeling this way. I know I haven't responded alot to everyone but I try. I won't bother anyone anymore.
Tina~

Tina,
I haven't responded to your posts because I am new here and rarely feel qualified to respond to any posts... I am sorry you are feeling bad, and you are right, we all need support from each other, and even if it's from a 'newbie' like me, I hope it still helps.
I hope others will respond to you too, to let you know that you are not alone. I have noticed that some days most of us are not up to doing much responding (all in the same boat, depression wise, I guess) So, please don't take it personally... We can all learn from each other, and your voice here is important...
Catherine
I am sorry you are hurting. I missed your orginal post but just read it. Have you talked with your pdoc about medication changes or increases etc? Do you go to a tdoc? I am fairly new to the board here and still trying to get to know about everyone. I just wanted your to know that I am thinking of you and praying you find some help somewhere. I hope you find more of what you are looking for on this board.
Hugs to you and know that I have been where you are and it is not a good place. I understand and hope it gets better for you soon.
Missy
Tina, I'm fairly new to this board, so I'm very sorry you are experiencing this.
God could not be everywhere, so
I'm so sorry you feel that way. I not that confidant responding so I don't do it that much. I went back and read your post. I know what you're talking about, especially the weight and excersize issues. I can't seem to curb my need to eat. I'm obsessed with food. I go back and forth between eating healthy fruits and veggies and eating candy. Please contine to post.
Vista
((((((Tina))))))
I am so very sorry for not responding but to be honest, i didn't even see that post until i just went back a read it (like that makes you feel better lol) please know that everyone on the board supports each other and like the other ladies said, if you don't know what to say, you hope someone who does will respond. also, if some of us are also having a bad day, its hard to post because it may make you feel worse. thats the nature of BP certain things what we call "triggers" if your not up to it, you ignore the post until you are. also, if alot of folks posted that day, your post gets knocked down to the second page so its missed. and, some folks dont have access to computers unless they are at work. i know these are not great excuses, i want you to understand that you are loved and prayed for.
You know, when i first started posting here i too posted an post not unlike yours, i can't remember the topic but i waited for a day and a half with no response, so i did exactly what you did, posted "why wont anyone talk to me!"
as far as your ST i think you should definately talk to your pdoc or tdoc. that is very serious, theres a suicide hotline number on the top of the BP message board.
don't even get me started on the weight thing! get your MIND right and the rest will follow. try not to think about it in a way thats negative. this is what i tell myself, "think of all the UGLY skinny people!" lol!
your right to weight out the moving in thing with BF let him get stable first. the last thing you need is more pressure.
well ive gabbed enough, i hope ive helped. if you need me just give me a holla!
valerie
Tina
I am sorry, I am new to this board and I am still trying to get a grip on things myself. I been really depressed. If you have any instant messenger I am always on because I go to school online.
Msn: MelissaDGB@msn.com
AIM MissaLBarnes,MissaLynn81 or Missadgb
Yahoo Littlesweets2005
Melissa
Tina,
I'm so sorry you feel unsupported but I totally understand.
This is a good idea. I would love to be able to IM people from this board.
My msn messenger address is : mmflanders@sbcglobal.net
(((Tina)))
I know exactly how you feel about not being responded to. I am also a borderline personality, so if someone hasn't responded to my post in an unrealistic amount of time I am already freaking out and then people go from god/desses to evil mean unloving people in a second.
I know that I missed you post this time around, because I was at camp and away. And coming back to the board was a confusing mess of MANY missed messages. Other times I am depressed and don't feel like posting at all. Sometimes I don't know what to say. I wish I could have the answers or the right words all the time but I don't. I wish even more than that, that I could let people know that I don't have the answers but am reading and thinking about them.
So, here I am reading and thinking about you.
Hugs,
Amanda
(((((Tina))))),
BTDT & it hurts, like kicking you when you're already down!