Carla.....

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Carla.....
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Tue, 06-21-2005 - 12:37pm

Carla, how are you? i miss ya girlie. you know i have to check on you once in a while. you still gonna be my joke partner right?

valerie

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Registered: 04-02-2003
In reply to: daftoptmst
Tue, 06-21-2005 - 1:31pm
Hi Valerie, I will post, is your surgery this month??? The 24th right? You have kids right? I know it doesn't matter I'm just going through a bad thing right now and I haven't got any children and it is making it so much worse. Not sure if I told you but my doc wants to medically induce menopause for the HS. I have it all over the D place, even on my face. Yeah....gonna find a man like this! I'm really dwelling in self pity today. My (sorry if too much info) period this month is WEIRD! Not really like it has been since I was nine. I'm so scared. Xdh was actually helpful. He stopped by yesterday (it was a State Holiday WV Day, I was off) not knowing I was home and he stood on the porch and actually spoke some nice words to me. He had stopped to play w/dog. But.....still I have this to face, with cycling and period. Another miserable week to look forward to. I go back to the doc on July 12th. I had canceled my appt this past Friday because I didn't want to face it and my doc called me yesterday. Oh well....pdoc called too. I'm not sure, but I think I'm losing my mind for real. It's crazy the way I feel, but I'll say it...don't get angry at me, I'm a desperate 36.5 yr old here. I'd go back for the sex if x would give me a baby. SO SAD I know......I'm just so scared.
Love ya bunches and bunches
Hugs and Hope
Carla
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In reply to: daftoptmst
Tue, 06-21-2005 - 2:39pm

Oh my dear, dear friend, i wish like hell i could make it all go away. i think of you often carla and say a little prayer. i understand when you don't post, i just want you to know that someone out there cares when it seems like no one does. No, DH and i don't have any children thank to endometriosis and all the surgeries i've had damaged my ovaries years ago. i know the feeling about children. it was really hard to deal when i found out i couldnt have any. we went to 3 different infertility clinics and thousands of dollars before we could except that fack that we wouldnt be parents. we talked about the adoption thing the surrogate thing but we just never did anything about it. DH and i live quiet lives being the Aunt and Uncle to the children of our closest friends, i guess thats enough.....for now.

Im 44 but folks tell me i look 34 which is wonderful being that im a fatty! well, maybe not a fatty, lets just say i could stand to lose some pounds! or like a friend of mine says "i'm not fat, im just fluffy" lol

Ah Carla, please don't have sex with DH. you'll feel so much worse afterwards. and by the way, you could never tell me TMI things in life happen. as far as your surgery, sometimes we have to make these hard choices that are not always attractive. but i'll tell you what, if its gonna help you, at least give it some thought. im sure your beautiful no matter what.

if you need to say anything personal here's my email address omeomi_9@hotmail.com

hug and hugs and hugs

valerie

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Registered: 04-02-2003
In reply to: daftoptmst
Tue, 06-21-2005 - 4:45pm

I don't know what I'd do w/o you. I'm so sorry you have no kids too. I guess sometimes we're needed elsewhere. My neice is my life, actually I have 12 neices/nephews and several great ones too. I can tell ya, when my 20 year old neice gave birth that made me feel old, but when my twin gave birth I felt like dying. It hurt so bad, but now 6 years later that monster is my life. Her and my Mom are what helps me commit to safety.

I'm trying to find a joke site to take over while you recover.

You know I won't give in and call X butthead. I just am cycling and felt like that for a few hours. He's outta my mind again. LOL...wish he'd stay out of there.

Well...my big brother is picking me up and I have to get a few things done before I can leave.

H&H
Carla
PS.....remind me again, your surgery, this month or next? I have that dreaded nasty mean evil painful disease too. I Hope you know you are always in my thoughts.

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In reply to: daftoptmst
Tue, 06-21-2005 - 5:25pm

my surgery is friday at 7:30 am. i have to be there at 6:00 am! i told my GYN if he gave me a scalpel, i'd get a head start on it! lol!

now don't forget, post tomorrow so i won't worry so much!

hugs and kisses,
valerie

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Registered: 04-02-2003
In reply to: daftoptmst
Wed, 06-22-2005 - 9:13am

Morning Valerie,
I hope you are doing fine, I'm.....well, I'm me. LOL.

I'll start posting the jokes on Friday, but I won't be able to do it on the weekends because I don't have a computer at home. X took everything.

Well.....I'm at work and boss is in the office. Gotta run. Hope you have a great day, and leave those scapels to the docs. =o)
Hugs & Hope!!!
Carla