Does anyone live with another BP--trigs?
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Does anyone live with another BP--trigs?
| Wed, 06-22-2005 - 7:51am |
I am about to loose it. My mother is a MAJOR bi-polar and won't admit it. Her and my dad are totally dependent on my DH and I. I stupidly took them in about 3 years ago before DH and I decided to get married. My mother is totally loosing control of herself. I believe she is in a depression. She needs treatment too but obviously I can't force her. Meanwhile the whole family gets treated to her hysterical screaming and crying. Everything I say to her she snaps at me that I am trying to hurt her. My 14 year old niece (my sisters child) is also bi-polar and totally out of control. So the three of us together make quite a combo-but my mother is the main catalyst. I tend to try to stay away from everyone when I am feeling manic. My mother verbally attacks. I can't take much more of this. If I try to go downstairs to get away from it all my mother calls me up screaming that I am a "hermit" and a cold b---h and starts stamping on the floor. She tells the whole family how mean and nasty I am so everyone gets angry with me. I am on the verge of either OD'ing in a hotel, or driving away and never returning. I hate going home now. Perhaps this is the main reason why I have been so unstable lately. I have put myself in a bad situation and can't get out of it. I realize this whole thing is really my fault but I need some sort of advice on how to deal with this or I will just go off the deep end! Anyone else live with another BP? I guess I just need a little support from people who understand!
Thanks!
Jodie
Thanks!
Jodie

I don't live w/another BP but I swear to you your Mom sounds like what I did to x. I think you just hurt the ones you are closest to. I wish I could give advice. I'm not so good at that today. Please don't go to a hotel, talk to your Mom. I know this must also be putting a strain on your marriage, something you do not need. If talking to her doesn't help, talk to your father, do an intervention, anything, bring in as many family and friends as you can. Show her what she is doing. I got to the point I was doing that in front of his brothers and company. I got out of hand, it took a lot for me to see how I was acting. Still to this day I feel he was at fault, he was to a degree, but not for the screaming and name calling. I was totally out of hand at the end. I have a huge problem with rage still, but now I have nobody to scream and yell at, so I take a wiffle bat and beat the daylights out of my garage floor, works a little. Pillows never worked for me, no noise. That may help your Mom, I hope you find help soon. You need peace of mind and you can't get it living this way. I know I've not helped, but know I care.
Hugs and Hope
Carla