I am doing ok. Still feeling anxiety but I am ok. The anxiety is not out of control. My tdoc wants me to deal with some things in my realtionship, which means I will need to communicate with Billy more and find out more where he is coming from as far as our relationship is concerned. I know he loves me but I don't feel my needs are fully being met and I don't like to say anything because I don't want to cause trouble in our relationship. The thing is it is causing trouble in our relationship because I get depressed over it and feel devalued. The main thing I need to find out is his plan for us financially and his job. He is a self employed builder and painter and he works basically when he wants to and then has time off when he wants, which in my opinion is too much time off. I need to know with me having a disabilty and being on Social Security that he will be able to support me to a point. I have some money but not enough to support him and me. I have been really doing alot of thinking about my future with him and I am not feeling totally secure about it. I want so much for us but I want him to be able to contribute what we need financially. He has improved on giving me support emotionally. But this whole confusion of what his plan is and what it isn't for our future has me an emotional reck. I tend to worry alot so this is hanging on me heavy. My tdoc wants me to have a talk with him this weekend about all this. I am so nervous. Nervous that I won't say something right or the way I mean it. I am also scared of rejection and him gettting angry at me. I just can't live on faith alone that he will provide. I need some proof. I know this may sound kinda shallow and materialistic but he has been promising me ring for over 3 years and he hasn't bought me one. The one I want is $700 and he has never saved for it. He has gone out and bought stuff he wants but my ring has never been priority. That makes me feel devalued. Like I am not worth a ring. Am I wrong for wanting a ring? Thank you for asking about me.
Hey Girl,
I am doing ok. Still feeling anxiety but I am ok. The anxiety is not out of control. My tdoc wants me to deal with some things in my realtionship, which means I will need to communicate with Billy more and find out more where he is coming from as far as our relationship is concerned. I know he loves me but I don't feel my needs are fully being met and I don't like to say anything because I don't want to cause trouble in our relationship. The thing is it is causing trouble in our relationship because I get depressed over it and feel devalued. The main thing I need to find out is his plan for us financially and his job. He is a self employed builder and painter and he works basically when he wants to and then has time off when he wants, which in my opinion is too much time off. I need to know with me having a disabilty and being on Social Security that he will be able to support me to a point. I have some money but not enough to support him and me. I have been really doing alot of thinking about my future with him and I am not feeling totally secure about it. I want so much for us but I want him to be able to contribute what we need financially. He has improved on giving me support emotionally. But this whole confusion of what his plan is and what it isn't for our future has me an emotional reck. I tend to worry alot so this is hanging on me heavy. My tdoc wants me to have a talk with him this weekend about all this. I am so nervous. Nervous that I won't say something right or the way I mean it. I am also scared of rejection and him gettting angry at me. I just can't live on faith alone that he will provide. I need some proof. I know this may sound kinda shallow and materialistic but he has been promising me ring for over 3 years and he hasn't bought me one. The one I want is $700 and he has never saved for it. He has gone out and bought stuff he wants but my ring has never been priority. That makes me feel devalued. Like I am not worth a ring. Am I wrong for wanting a ring? Thank you for asking about me.
Love ya too hun
Tina~