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| Thu, 06-23-2005 - 5:37pm |
Hi all, I am new here and hope I can join in. I have been seeing a tdoc or pdoc since I was 19, I am now 35. I didn't get a real dx of BP until I was about 26, and the pdoc didn't put me on meds because as she said "just because yoour bipolar doesn't mean you need meds!" even though I was suicidal and depressed at the time and had a brother who is also BP. Anyway, I didn't really want more meds (I had previously been on Prozac and trilafon, horrible!) Eventually things got to a real crisis point and I needed emergency care. I finally have ended up with a really excellent pdoc that I adore, and am currently on Abilify, klonopin and depakote (I've also tried seroquel, valium, wellbutrin, trazadone, topamax, lexapro, risperdal, restoril, gabitril and sonata...and I think that's all, it's enough anyway to let you know!)
My issue now is summers are notoriously bad for me and I feel like I am sliding and I get SO scared. I have 3 kids and it's hard to take care of them when I feel like this. I just want to curl up in bed and cry all day. And no one it seems understands, not even my family. Anyway, I am not trying to be a downer on my first post here (I may have posted a LONG time ago, I don't recall) but I just feel like I need some support by people who get it, and maybe I can offer some too. Thanks!
littlemascara
My issue now is summers are notoriously bad for me and I feel like I am sliding and I get SO scared. I have 3 kids and it's hard to take care of them when I feel like this. I just want to curl up in bed and cry all day. And no one it seems understands, not even my family. Anyway, I am not trying to be a downer on my first post here (I may have posted a LONG time ago, I don't recall) but I just feel like I need some support by people who get it, and maybe I can offer some too. Thanks!
littlemascara
I UNDERSTAND. Since my oldest two are out of school and my youngest is two, I too feel completely overwhelmed. They fight and are needy and sometimes I just don't have it in me. My meds were increased today (abilify and effexor) and I really hope it works. Normally, I enjoy summer, at least the weather, but I understand the need/want to be just left alone.
Glad you are joining us and hope you continue to post.
Missy - 30 yo SAHM to 3 boys - 10yo, 4yo and 2 yo.
DX in Feb. 2005
I'm glad you found us!
welcome!
I hope you aren't sliding. For me winters are the worst. I hate the dark and cold so that doesn't help my mood. The lack of sunlight doesn't help either i bet. But then again I don't have kids out of school that i have to take care of.
hugs,
Amanda