ex boyfriend has bipolar, he is emailing
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| Sun, 06-26-2005 - 1:00am |
I broke up with my bipolar boyfriend just this past wed
It was the last straw, He woke me up in the middle of the night, by clapping his hands real loud,
he said I don't do enough for him,
He had just got shots to quit cigarrette smoking, and he was on meds for that
and it was heck, and I dealt with it because he had done a zillion things for me
and I kept giving him excuses cause they gave him bella donna and something else
so i would let it go, but I had just been through hell
and so wed, he is upset with me, I was sleeping, I fell asleep watching conan on nbc
we had watched leno, and daily show prior, we were laughing, things were fine
and then he wants me to get up at 2 am
and he is shouting at me
he then tells me to get the f out of his house, he drove me there
I have no car, ( VULNERABLE SITUATION)
I do not know his neighbors, I do not have a cell phone
I leave and sit in the woods for a while, praying, figuring what to do next
I left his house, because he told me to, He cornered me in the kitchen, he spits in my face!
he is screaming like a lunatic, red face, veins popping out his head
Hours before, he told me how beautiful I am, how much he loves me, how he is grateful I am his friend and in his life.........
WHAT????????????
This is so embarrassing. SO that is how I left him
just like that, no turning back, it is unhealthy
I will miss him forever, love part of him forever, wonder how a person can be two people forever
really confused by this unhealthy bizarre behavior
He was so sweet, loving, I was so proud of him
and then he would tell me everything he did not like about me, everythign I did wrong
I am not the worst person on the planet,
unrealistic expectations, he could have talked to me about it, used a different approach
screaming at me, and walking out of stores, threatening me to drop me off some random place off the road, when he is driving and I am the passanger
I mean even if he did not like me, no one deserves to be just dropped off on the road
What the heck?
I never did anything criminal to him, nothing mean, I don't owe him a dollar
I wish I never fell in love with him
he was so great when I met him, I feel like I am living in some lifetime movie now
ugh, God help me
I hope he does not make my life a living heck right now
This could be scary he has been emailing me mean things
I thought I was smart, I really loved him, man
why me?
Is this bipolar, or some other mental disorder,? he has anger problems, but
then he makes up these stories about me, and really thinks it true
or he is playing mind games,
ugh
anyone who took the time to read this, bless your heart,it is too long
I am just freaking out by the whole experience.
thanks a zillion for your support,

(((((Lori))))),
At it's worst BP can make us act pretty psychotic and it sounds like this is what your xbf is going through.
Lori,
As a BP I can certainly identify with your BF's behavior - nevertheless, that does not make it acceptable.