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Board is silent today
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Tue, 07-05-2005 - 2:31pm

Everyone okay? I'm still working up the nerve to tell the dreamy cop my name. =o) I keep walking by his post today and smiling and chatting but I still don't know what color his eyes are or his name. Someone come to WV, go up to him and tell him my name and that I would love to have coffee with him....pretty please???? LOL

Had a very depressing 3 days off. Really looked forward to seeing this man and talking to him. I tell you what, abuse can really linger even with the abuser out of the picture. X's words still echo in my mind. Fat, nasty, ugly.and I really don't think I'm any of those. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. =o)

HUGS & HOPE
Carla

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Tue, 07-05-2005 - 2:41pm

Carla,


Maybe everybody is recuperating from a late night of watching fireworks!

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Tue, 07-05-2005 - 3:28pm
Marci, You are the GREATEST. Thank you so much. I'll try the mantra, but I am not good with positive self talk. My tdoc has been trying and I just can't do it. I don't know why. My goodness....I know I'm worthy of attention and affection. My best friend who is a man said I over think everything. Which I do. He suggested the coffee break too. I sat outside there a few minutes ago and I honestly got nervous just looking at him. LOL, I give myself until tomorrow to think of something witty to say. I keep stepping on my words today. LOL MEN!
Hugs & Hope
Carla
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Wed, 07-06-2005 - 12:07am

(((((Carla)))))

I'm okay (depending on the particular moment anyway -mixed dysphoric mania here), thanks for thinking about us.

I thought I'd let you know my mantra. I never believed it but I kept saying it and now it just pops into my head. It was given to me by my highschool guidance counsellor.

"I am more than I appear to be for I have all the power and love of god within me" (although I must say I changed it to the goddess even then. Now I say god and I know I mean my god and not hers or anyone elses...whether that is male or female or both)

You can do it! Good luck!

Love,
Amanda

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Wed, 07-06-2005 - 10:11am

Thanks Amanda, You know I would have to change it too. =o)

I found out the cops name and that he has just began dating a lady from the DMV. THAT BITES! But oh well....it is what it is and I can't change it. I will still flirt, but a little less so as to not upset her. She's nice from what I hear. I should be like some of the people I've known in my life, ruthless, but it isn't me. I can't see myself trying to steal a man, just isn't right.

Hugs & Hope
Carla

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Thu, 07-07-2005 - 1:01am

I can't see you trying to steal a man either, but you're right, what's a little innocent flirting. (Just maybe not in front of her).

Amanda

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