I'm so weird...Is it BP or what?
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I'm so weird...Is it BP or what?
| Thu, 07-07-2005 - 2:51pm |
I think I have mentioned before that I live too much in a fantasy world. I pretend I am my character, something I have done since I as 9 or 10. It's a good escape for me since I gave up trying to make friends years and years ago. Unfortunately I tend to "act out" my scenarios. I look absolutely crazy doing it, but I can't help it. The people at work have noticed. I have tried hard to control my fantasy life at work but it still seeps out. I overheard two of my co-workers in the bathroom discussing it. "There's something WRONG with that girl" "she was deprived as a child". I just wanted to DIE. I wish my heart would stop, it's sure beating fast enough. My fantasy's are all I have left. You take them away and I have nothing. I guess I'm just tired of being strange, tired of trying to fit in, and tired of trying to come up with a solution. I guess there just isn't one.
Gloomy today. :(
Jodie
Gloomy today. :(
Jodie

Jodie,
I don't think you're weird!!!!!!! I don't know if it is BP related or not. I daydream a TON!! Things like Elliott Sadler sees me and wants to date me, or like last night I played a scenario out in my head about the cute cop here at work. At home I usually answer myself and things, but I don't at work, I just stare into space, and I do that often. Is that what you are doing? I guess I'm not reading things well today, took two vistarils because of my nerves earlier.
HUGS & Hope
Carla
Jodie,
First of all, you aren't weird.
Jodie,
We all daydream to one extent or another, some of it more grounded in reality than others, while others are just out and out fantasy.
Jodie
Jodie,
Would you consider this a multiple personality? Do you argue with the character. I think maybe you should tell your pdoc/tdoc all you've told us and tell them that the previous option is not an option for you and that you would like to find something else to help you. You do realize that it is still a character in your mind, that has to be a plus. I think I misunderstood your first post, because I daydream like it is going out of style to escape reality mostly, then on the other hand, because I know one day will come when my dreams will come true if I keep dreaming and pursue them.
Love, Hugs & Hope
Carla
Jodie,
I know that is totally scary for you.
Jodie
You'd have to hear my life story (haha) to understand why I hate Jodie so much. Basically I am tired of being "different".
Going home now. I will check back tomorrow. Don't have internet access at home.
Thanks for all the responses guys. I really need them right now! Pain is taking over.
Jodie
Love, Hugs and Hope
Carla
Jodie,
I'm sorry that you hate Jodie so much.