Tracey

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tracey
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Tue, 07-12-2005 - 9:52am

Hey...feeling somewhat better today.

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Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 07-12-2005 - 10:27am

I'm miserable, but bp-wise am good. Mike being back at work is harder then I thought it would be. :( He called me right after I got home from work and we chatted until after 8 when he HAD start getting ready for work (he hadn't eaten or anything yet). Thankfully, my friend Tanya called me around 11 and talked to me for an hour or so, but it just didn't work. I fell asleep around 1 and was up and down all night. I over-slept this morning and just feel horrible. I miss him like crazy and it is awful. The ONLY thing keeping me going at this point is that he will be calling me when he gets home from work around 11:30/12:00. *Deep Sigh*

You might be cycling early because of the stress this week- you know how fun that can be. Sucks about your back! Take it VERY easy so you don't throw it into spasm. I'm breaking out now too - I suppose that means he'll be here next week LOL! Just take things easy and if you don't feel up to talking with your mom tell her that you are really busy at work and ask her to limit her calls to 1x a day. You need to find her a local friend LOL!

Anyway, I am going to continue to sigh in misery and watch the clock. :) This sucks - have I mentioned that? At least last night he made it very clear that when he gets here, he is going to do some checking out of the job market so that when he has to move up here he is set already. Told me straight out that under no circumstances would he let me take care of him...it's his job to take care of me. *Deep Sigh*.

Ok - making myself gag....am WAY too sappy.

I'll ttyl!

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 07-12-2005 - 10:38am

Girlfriend, you got it BAD!

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Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 07-12-2005 - 11:04am

Soon as you mentioned Chris (or if you mention the H word) I KNOW you are cycling up! LOL

I think it would be REALLY REALLY healthy for you to limit your visits to your parents place to 2x a month max. Your mom is getting too dependant on you (and your caretaker's disease allows her to). I know she has a lot of health issues, but you have enough other responsibilities without being her primary caregiver also. Don't get me wrong, it is wonderful that you are helping her so much and I know you feel terrible if you can't be right there for her when she needs you. Still, you have to get back to putting YOU first. Then Mike and Eric, THEN your parents.

I think the lithium and wellbutrin is a good idea, especially since it worked a bit for you before. Honestly, even if you hover on the edge of manic it will be better then you hovering on the edge of depression so much (IMHO).

BTW: Yes, I have it worse then just bad. I've falled off the cliff and landed HARD.

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In reply to: keli003
Tue, 07-12-2005 - 11:17am

LOL, I know...I never want to see Chris or the H word, I did see the H word from a distance not too long ago and OMG, he looked SOOO good.