I tried calling you yesterday - you need an answering machine! :)
I am actually really well. Mike scared the heck out of me this weekend. I was sappy on Friday and sent him and e-card (I know, who AM I???). He adored it. Then, after our EQ Wedding, he started acting funny. You know what I mean when they have something they want to tell you but are scared to tell you? GRRR - hate that. Finally, after my third time of asking what was on his mind and him trying to change the subject, I told him that I wasn't letting it go. If he had something on his mind I really needed to know what it was - if he didn't want to say it out loud, he could send me an in-game message telling me. Turns out, he is scared about our real-life relationship. He loved the e-card and realized how strong his feelings for me were getting and is scared I am going to hurt him. OMG I was in tears (and found out later he was tearing up during our talk too). We talked about the things that were scaring both of us, and why we should know they aren't going to happen. Then, I told him to forget about buying a plane ticket to come and visit and to just pack the truck and move here. He was stunned, as was I. I couldn't believe I suggested it, but I mean it with my entire heart and soul. I want him with me. He is giving it thought, but is still being cautious (thank goodness one of us is). I expect him here (if I have any control over it) by the end of the month, to stay. Scared me though, because he didn't call all day yesterday. I thought my moving suggestion scared him off - but turned out when I got home from moms and STILL didn't have a call from him, I checked the phone and my one phone was acting like it was off the hook. Within 30 seconds of fixing it, he called - said he had been trying me all day - he was worrried about me! I really do love him. :) You're going to come up for the wedding, right? LOL!!
Other then that, Savannah and I had a nice weekend together. I told her all about him, and she is praying he moves in with us. She's excited and hopeful!
I'll try you later to find out how you are holding up, but post back to me if you need/want :)
1. Call AOL and put on your "tracey" hat. Get them moving on that Freaking Credit!!
2. You call your dr for something for your sinus infection. It obviously isn't just a virus. You need a stronger antibiotic.
3. You need to start the wellbutrin!!!!!!!! It is not going to kick in right away (can take 3-4 weeks!) and you are going off/are off (?) the cymbalta. Of COURSE you are going to be depressed.
4. If you EVER EVER EVER have urges to take all your ativan and/or can't sleep again and do not call me I am coming down there young lady!!!!!! You know I don't sleep! Even if I was asleep I would get up for you! Heck, I'd hang up on Mike to talk to you (now THERE is devotion! lol!)
You should also go to your dr about your back. Depending on your insurance coverage, you may be able to get some physical therapy to get it back into gear. If you haven't done that before it can be WONDERFUL. I loved it. Deep muscle massage, ultrasound therapy, and then ice or heat as needed before I oozed out the door!
Thank you for being happy for me. I am so happy for me too :) I deserve this one. I just have to help him get stuff straightened out and get his hiney up here. We have decided neither of us likes Texas now LOL!
i am still taking the cymbalta...won't stop that til i get the wellbutrin...hopefully this week i will be able to get it...i am just a mess...i hate being bipolar, i hate everything about everything right now...nothing, and i do mean nothing, is bringing me back up out of this...i promise i'll call you if i get those urges again.
eric just called to check on me...said he was going to work and would have money for my wellbutrin this evening, so i can start it tomorrow morning...i told him i was quite depressed and he's worried about me...i am trying to 'pretend' everything is okay with my mom and here at work, but its not okay.
Don't let your office hag get to you. She is just jealous that you have so much crud going on and you keep pulling through and going strong without having to sit around with half the office whining about it. I know it hurts though, when I had Savannah my office didn't send me any flowers or anything because the girl that did that (who was also having a baby) forgot the day I was getting out of the hospital and didn't want to bother sending them to my house. Of course, she arranged to have them sent to herself while she was in after having her kid.
I hate that you need the seroquel, but if it going to help, take it! And do not forget to call if needed.
ALSO - too dang bad if Bill is upset if you have to leave. You do what you NEED to do. I think you should try to hang around at work as much as you can because sitting at home is only going to make you feel worse :(
She is pissed because I am having to ask her to do work and she doesn't like that...so what i did was call a meeting with her bosses and mine, and others, to discuss it.
Do what you need to get some sleep tonight. I REALLY REALLY think at this point you need to call your gp about your back. PT should be covered by your insurance, and the copay you give your gp should apply also to PT because it is the same problem. It will help you. Either that, or he will give you some type of muscle relaxant.
You take it easy - am here all day (unfortunately) so keep on posting. I stayed up talking to Mike until after 1, then (finally) did my laundry and read part of the new Harry Potter book so I didnt get to sleep until 4:30. Am exhausted.
Sweety - I hate to tell you but I have NEVER gone to a chiropracter and use to throw my back out a couple times a year. About 8 months after I had Savannah I did it so bad I couldn't pick her up or lift my leg to get in or out of a car - I would have to reach down with my hand and pick my leg up. Physical therapy, which most insurance covers very well, took care of it. This last time I hurt myself, a few years ago, I had a really good phys therapist and haven't had a problem since. None of them EVER even SUGGESTED a chiropractor. SEE YOUR DR! Tell them at the desk that you forgot your checkbook - they will bill you for the co-pay. I do that all the time.
Hang in there, and tell your son that you wish he was sweet like he use to be LOL
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Ugh? WTF is UGH?? LOL!
I tried calling you yesterday - you need an answering machine! :)
I am actually really well. Mike scared the heck out of me this weekend. I was sappy on Friday and sent him and e-card (I know, who AM I???). He adored it. Then, after our EQ Wedding, he started acting funny. You know what I mean when they have something they want to tell you but are scared to tell you? GRRR - hate that. Finally, after my third time of asking what was on his mind and him trying to change the subject, I told him that I wasn't letting it go. If he had something on his mind I really needed to know what it was - if he didn't want to say it out loud, he could send me an in-game message telling me. Turns out, he is scared about our real-life relationship. He loved the e-card and realized how strong his feelings for me were getting and is scared I am going to hurt him. OMG I was in tears (and found out later he was tearing up during our talk too). We talked about the things that were scaring both of us, and why we should know they aren't going to happen. Then, I told him to forget about buying a plane ticket to come and visit and to just pack the truck and move here. He was stunned, as was I. I couldn't believe I suggested it, but I mean it with my entire heart and soul. I want him with me. He is giving it thought, but is still being cautious (thank goodness one of us is). I expect him here (if I have any control over it) by the end of the month, to stay. Scared me though, because he didn't call all day yesterday. I thought my moving suggestion scared him off - but turned out when I got home from moms and STILL didn't have a call from him, I checked the phone and my one phone was acting like it was off the hook. Within 30 seconds of fixing it, he called - said he had been trying me all day - he was worrried about me! I really do love him. :) You're going to come up for the wedding, right? LOL!!
Other then that, Savannah and I had a nice weekend together. I told her all about him, and she is praying he moves in with us. She's excited and hopeful!
I'll try you later to find out how you are holding up, but post back to me if you need/want :)
Tracey
omg, i am tearing up over here myself, just to hear you SOOO happy!
1. Call AOL and put on your "tracey" hat. Get them moving on that Freaking Credit!!
2. You call your dr for something for your sinus infection. It obviously isn't just a virus. You need a stronger antibiotic.
3. You need to start the wellbutrin!!!!!!!! It is not going to kick in right away (can take 3-4 weeks!) and you are going off/are off (?) the cymbalta. Of COURSE you are going to be depressed.
4. If you EVER EVER EVER have urges to take all your ativan and/or can't sleep again and do not call me I am coming down there young lady!!!!!! You know I don't sleep! Even if I was asleep I would get up for you! Heck, I'd hang up on Mike to talk to you (now THERE is devotion! lol!)
You should also go to your dr about your back. Depending on your insurance coverage, you may be able to get some physical therapy to get it back into gear. If you haven't done that before it can be WONDERFUL. I loved it. Deep muscle massage, ultrasound therapy, and then ice or heat as needed before I oozed out the door!
Thank you for being happy for me. I am so happy for me too :) I deserve this one. I just have to help him get stuff straightened out and get his hiney up here. We have decided neither of us likes Texas now LOL!
i am still taking the cymbalta...won't stop that til i get the wellbutrin...hopefully this week i will be able to get it...i am just a mess...i hate being bipolar, i hate everything about everything right now...nothing, and i do mean nothing, is bringing me back up out of this...i promise i'll call you if i get those urges again.
eric just called to check on me...said he was going to work and would have money for my wellbutrin this evening, so i can start it tomorrow morning...i told him i was quite depressed and he's worried about me...i am trying to 'pretend' everything is okay with my mom and here at work, but its not okay.
Don't let your office hag get to you. She is just jealous that you have so much crud going on and you keep pulling through and going strong without having to sit around with half the office whining about it. I know it hurts though, when I had Savannah my office didn't send me any flowers or anything because the girl that did that (who was also having a baby) forgot the day I was getting out of the hospital and didn't want to bother sending them to my house. Of course, she arranged to have them sent to herself while she was in after having her kid.
I hate that you need the seroquel, but if it going to help, take it! And do not forget to call if needed.
ALSO - too dang bad if Bill is upset if you have to leave. You do what you NEED to do. I think you should try to hang around at work as much as you can because sitting at home is only going to make you feel worse :(
She is pissed because I am having to ask her to do work and she doesn't like that...so what i did was call a meeting with her bosses and mine, and others, to discuss it.
Do what you need to get some sleep tonight. I REALLY REALLY think at this point you need to call your gp about your back. PT should be covered by your insurance, and the copay you give your gp should apply also to PT because it is the same problem. It will help you. Either that, or he will give you some type of muscle relaxant.
You take it easy - am here all day (unfortunately) so keep on posting. I stayed up talking to Mike until after 1, then (finally) did my laundry and read part of the new Harry Potter book so I didnt get to sleep until 4:30. Am exhausted.
omg, girl...you stayed up LATE!
Sweety - I hate to tell you but I have NEVER gone to a chiropracter and use to throw my back out a couple times a year. About 8 months after I had Savannah I did it so bad I couldn't pick her up or lift my leg to get in or out of a car - I would have to reach down with my hand and pick my leg up. Physical therapy, which most insurance covers very well, took care of it. This last time I hurt myself, a few years ago, I had a really good phys therapist and haven't had a problem since. None of them EVER even SUGGESTED a chiropractor. SEE YOUR DR! Tell them at the desk that you forgot your checkbook - they will bill you for the co-pay. I do that all the time.
Hang in there, and tell your son that you wish he was sweet like he use to be LOL
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