Oy, what a day! I'm not safe. trig

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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 1:39am

I slept all day until I had to go to work (and then get mad at myself for sleeping). Then at work my coworker has obviously gotten over her "I'm new so I better watch what I say" attitude and has already started pulling complete attitude with me. I am also in a lot of pain and find that I cannot do a lot of my work (things that require gripping hurt my wrist, mopping kills my shoulder and wrist, just a few examples). My coworker did next to nothing (2 things versus 10) and I did most of the serving, and then she expects to go home right at midnight becase "she is done". No sorry doesn't work that way. For one thing the dining room is not equal to the front as far as work load goes and for two it's a joint effort. We are supposed to leave at the same time. So, if she helps with the work then we both get to go sooner, but nooooo she doesn't deserve to do "my" work. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I was so mad and depressed that I was crying before I even left work and quickly became triggered to SI and SU. How can I possibly work with her for the next 3 days?! Why should I let her "win" by hurting myself? But that's how I feel.

Now of course more gossip will fly about me. Whatever. I know I shouldn't care what those losers think.

I've been looking into going on employment insurance (sick) benefits. It will be two weeks before I get to see my doctor again and I don't know how EI works. I don't want to quit before I get that figured out. I hate that I physically can't do my job and I hate my coworker's response when I said I really can't mop right now..."then why do you work here?" Well I haven't always been in so much pain! Instead of just being helpful she has to be a bitch. I guess that store attracts bitchy workers. People who can't do any better than a sub shop, obviously. I have a degree and still can't EVEN do my job at a sub shop let alone better.

Amanda aka loser

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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 9:35am

Amanda, you are NOT a loser. That's just your BP telling you lies. I am so sorry that you got stuck with such a bitchy co-worker... there's nothing worse than spending so much time with someone like that... Hang in there ok, don't let her get to you. Just do the best you can.

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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 10:48am

{{{{{{{Amanda}}}}}}} I agree you are NOT a loser!!! I'm sorry you're having such a rough time : ( I wish you happy days and send you lots of prayers & hugs.


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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 1:41pm

Thanks (((Catherine)))

Apparantly I'm the bitchy coworker. Well excuse me! I've been trying so hard even though I'm extremely depressed. We got along okay the first couple days (weeks) and then I go away and everyone gets the idea that they can stand up to me now that I'm away for vacation. She doesn't understand the whole mental illness thing either and does think that I'm just a bitch. If she didn't bitch back at me I'm sure I wouldn't bitch at her. And the whole idea that she can leave as soon as it's midnight while i stay and finish everything was enough to make me bitch at her. ugh. I don't know how I'll ever get through the next 3 shifts. This has been the longest week of my life!

Amanda

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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 1:47pm

Thanks (((Danielle)))

I am trying so hard to get through this. I'm trying to act "as if" I am happy. I'm trying to hold my tongue and think before I speak but things just aren't working. And this was one of the few coworkers that I could get along with (mind you there aren't many people working at this place to begin with). People just need to figure out how I work and things would be okay. But she's already coming out and saying "could you please do this"...then "are you ever going to do that" and then "don't tell me you had no break while I was cooking bacon that you could have done this" Well no I didn't. I didn't have a washroom break all night either and I don't smoke so I didn't get those breaks that she did either! Grrr.

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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 1:55pm

Thanks ((((Val))))

I'm having a few more than "messed up" days. I almost went to the hospital, but I couldn't bring myself to. I haven't felt this bad since my OD.

I tried to talk to my coworker from the beginning and tell her I have problems and try to tell her how I work so she can work around that. I know it's not fair that everyone should have to do things my way but sometimes the only way around me is on eggshells. I don't think she was having a bad day. Another coworker that had her hired told me she was a bitch and wouldn't put up with my s'@# which is obviously true.

I know they're not my real friends, but I can't even get through a shift without incident and that is definately hostile. I swear the time I was away gave them time to all get together to talk about me and plot against me.

Sigh,
Amanda

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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 4:05pm

Val


I'm so sorry you are going thru this....I guess in my own way I just posted a vent sounding somewhat familiar.


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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 5:16pm

(((Amanda)) i hope you don't think i was being flippant about your problem. i have certainly BTDT on the co-worker front. i don't know what to say, so guess i shouldn't have said anything at all. i hope i didn't hurt your feelings. i hope next week will be a better week for you. is this chick your superior? if not, why is she barking orders? maybe it's something that can brought up in a private meeting with your boss?

im wishing you the best,

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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 7:32pm

{{{{Amanda}}}}}


Hey, cut it out with the loser comments!

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Sat, 07-23-2005 - 2:04am

(((Val))))

I took no offence at all to your post. I hope it didn't come off that way. No this chick is not my superior (for one thing it's *just* a sub shop) but she is the newest person there. I have been there going on 3 years.

Today was better btw. Thank god! I had to bite my tongue and do a lot of thinking before I speak. I hate that people have to walk around on eggshells around me, but now that I'm the one doing the tiptoeing I really don't like it (although it does make me realize how others must feel with me and that is depressing).

No I'm not going to go to my boss. I really hate it when people do that to me (particularly with half-truths).

I did see my boss tonight but I couldn't bring myself to tell him I quit. I've never had to do that really. I don't know HOW to quit! Is it totally inappropriate to quit over the phone? I just can't disappoint my boss. I never could. I've always ended up working shifts I didn't want to because I didn't want to leave him in a jam.

AFN

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Sat, 07-23-2005 - 2:13am

Thank you (((Morgaine)))

Good to know it doesn't just happen in sub shops (well bad too in that I can't necessarily get away from it). I believe in karma and the wiccan law of three so yes I think it will come back. Sadly, that is probably why I deserve this.

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