pdoc appointment today

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Fri, 07-29-2005 - 5:11pm

Well I saw my pdoc today. As always I was nervous. Ugh. Why can't I get over that? She's a great person.

Anyway we decided that the perphenazine was helping and to continue that and the Wellbutrin, but she wants to bring me down off the Epival (at what I think is an outrageous pace of at least 2 months!). I told her when I was on the wellbutrin alone that it threw me into the atmosphere. (I don't think she believes me, that was before I started seeing her). Thankfully she is considering lithium after we come off the epival.

She says that I need to worry less about my weight and learn a new perspective on it. Bleh. Easy for her to say. She's not eating nearly nothing but salad and still gaining weight.

I filled her in on the nightmares and flashbacks. I think she thinks I should tell my mom about the SA, but that's not going to happen.

She reminded me to call the mental health clinic, which I guess i was supposed to do already, since I've been on the waiting list for 7 months already.

I told her I've renewed my sobriety and am going back to AA. I know I'm not as bad as some people, but I know I've been misusing alcohol and it isn't helping anything, so I might as well stay sober.

I guess that's about it for now.

Amanda

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Fri, 07-29-2005 - 9:51pm

Amanda,


I think it kind of comes with the territory of the doc/patient relationship--they have SO much control over our lives, especially pdocs that you can't help but be a bit nervous.

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Mon, 08-01-2005 - 10:55am

Hey honey!

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Mon, 08-01-2005 - 11:55pm

(((Marci)))

Thanks for writing.

I also write stuff down for ALL my appointments or else get in there and have absolutely nothing to say (even if I really do have something to say). I didn't bring my list out when I was at pdoc appointment though, but I had gone through it beforehand to remind myself.

So far no problem coming off the epival. She does want to do it slowly. That's not an issue. I'm going to be at this level for a month before I see her again and then 1 less for another month and so on. It will take me 2-3 months to get off this med! That seems like a very long time to me. I'm nervous about going off the med, but I know I want to since i think I was slightly disappointed when she didn't take me off the meds last time like she said she would. I really do think lithium and wellbutrin (and perphenazine and ativan) could be my magic combo. It's still a lot of meds. I wish I could just be on lithium and be good, but I don't know if that will be the case.

I haven't even been to AA since I wrote that, but I've also been away the weekend. I'm way out of the habit. Last year I went all the time. At the very least I should go to my home group.

I hope to get up the nerve to call the mental health clinic tomorrow, and maybe the SA centre. Although that one's a biggy.

Hugs,
Amanda

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Mon, 08-01-2005 - 11:58pm

Love you (((((Keli)))))

Thanks for writing!

It is so good to hear you talk about yourself and your weight like that because I know you were feeling pretty down about it too. I'm stable right now but it's still bugging me. Hopefully I can use this time to re-program my thoughts on the subject and get into the habit of wearing makeup and such. I wish I didn't quit my job for the one reason that I need money. I need all new clothes since I gained weight. I guess I'll have to stick to the couple drawstring pants I have. :( I'm starting to get stressed about quitting my job now!

sigh. Ah well

Amanda

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