keli girl

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Registered: 11-19-2004
keli girl
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Mon, 08-08-2005 - 12:32pm

hey baby girl...


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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: canyouhearmenow
Mon, 08-08-2005 - 1:23pm

hey you...so glad you posted to me! i was worried about you...you sound better though, thank goodness. i am in the pits again. sucks. i don't even know what poppy wrote to you over on the other board...gonna go look in a minute. she IS right about a lot of things, but its SOOO hard to "take" her advice. i wish i could though. life would be easier. i called my pdoc this morning...cannot cannot will not take this anymore.

the topamax will kick in almost immediately, as far as side effects go, the no appetite thing will increase as your dosage increases...right now, i'm having more of the tinglies. hate those. what's your dosage?

i am so so so so so so so depressed and i hate hate hate hate it. i am also VERY irritable, anxious, and agitated...bad thoughts...bad bad thoughts...confused as to what to DO. NO hospital though...that much i know without a doubt...

i just want to be okay...that's all...just okay...for a while AGAIN...this depression is killing me...figuratively speaking, i promise.

the rage is starting up again bad...am totally going OFF on people...and they don't deserve it...my mom, my son...omg...then i totally lose it, and cry my eyes out for hours.

i freaking hate being BP, and various other things...

i love you too..
k.