Okay, kinda scared, but not...weird.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Okay, kinda scared, but not...weird.
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Mon, 08-08-2005 - 4:21pm

I just talked to my pdoc. And here is the verdict. No a/d's for me. Increasing my Topamax to 200 mgs from the 100 I was going to get to. Up to 200 over the next 5 days. She is hoping that it will even out my moods along with the Lithium. Said I am very rapidly cycling again...yeah, ya think? I'm feeling much better now than I was earlier, and while that should be a good thing, its not. You all know what I mean.

I want to stabilize again. I am going to do everything I can to ensure that happens. I will have a plan. I will ensure that I eat right. I will get a good night's sleep EVERY night. I will stay away from as many triggers as I can. I can do no more than that, but I can do THAT.

Am a little scared to be without an a/d, but they weren't keeping me from depression anyway, and were agitating me like crazy.

Love and Hugs,
Keli

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Mon, 08-08-2005 - 4:27pm

((((((((((Keli)))))))))) know that I'm here for you! Hopefully pdoc has found the answer this time:) I met with mine today as well and we left the meds alone for now. I don't know if my anger at my ex is keeping the depression at bay or what, but I'm feeling pretty "even" right now, but at the same time not. It's hard to explain but I guess anyone who is BP can understand.


Keep us posted on how you're doing:) Hang in there and stay strong!


Hugs & Love,
Traci

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Registered: 05-11-2003
Mon, 08-08-2005 - 6:07pm
I hope the change in meds works for you! I am glad to see you're staying positive and have a plan to keep healthy and avoid triggers. Boy do I know how hard that is!

littlemascara
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Registered: 10-23-2004
Mon, 08-08-2005 - 8:07pm

Keli,


Interestingly enough, Depakote and Abilify made a huge dent in my depression and I'm down to 100 mgs of zoloft.