How is everyone today? (8/9)

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How is everyone today? (8/9)
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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 9:16am

Just wanted to see how everyone is doing today????

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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 3:16pm

Hi Donna,


I'm still hanging in. Met w/ tdoc today and she suggested that if I can't bring myself to make the call to the child support enforcement by my next appointment (thursday) that I bring the number and my cell phone to the appointment and do it there.


Not sure how I feel about that. I mean, I know I've got to make the call. I know I need to do this for my kids. I also feel that I should be able to do this by myself "like a big kid." But, my fear keeps kicking in and preventing me from picking up the phone. Yet, if I do it in tdoc's office as she offered, I'll feel even worse 'cause then I'll feel like a failure for not being able to stand up for my kids on my own two feet.


Does any of that make any sense at all? I know my tdoc means well and wants me to be able to do this and that's cool. but it just makes me feel inept. I don't know how else to explain it.


I guess it just fits my loser m.o. Thanks for listening.


Traci

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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 3:32pm

Yep, that's what you're doing...letting your mind take over. STOP IT ALREADY!

I know, I can't do it either.

Hang in there...sounds like you're really tired. Hopefully you can get some rest tonight. Going home and veggin out and sleeping so much last night really helped me. I'm doing it again tonight.

Oh, well, I had some corn chips, but a small bag. 160 calories. See I gotta bring stuff to work to eat. If I keep this up, my ED is going to be back in full force. I already KNOW its happening. Won't be bad for a while though...

Triggers suck. XDH's suck. Combined, they REALLY suck.

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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 3:34pm

You are not a loser, and yes I completely understand.

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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 3:36pm
you are too cute...thank you, I needed that !!!

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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 3:54pm

I try...

lol

ya know...this morning...i told someone...this guy...that he was out of his mind! LOLOL

he is though...i have a mental illness and i am admittedly a crazy woman...but this guy is NUTSO!

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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 7:50pm

(((Donna)))


Sorry that things are rough today. I hope the night shapes up to be better.


Good luck with the bloodwork and surgery.


Amandaa

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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 8:04pm

Hey Keli,


Glad that you are working at keeping those blahs away. I'm working on the same thing. I am basically stable, but get hit with the blahs out of nowhere.


I guess 2 out

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Tue, 08-09-2005 - 8:38pm

(((traci)))


Hey you!! Don't you dare

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Wed, 08-10-2005 - 9:46am

Of course you are NOT a loser, you are just scared. We all get scared. We all think we are losers...but that is what our BP brain wants us to think. Don't listen to it.

You are so much more than a loser, Traci. We all are.

If you can't do it til you get to your Tdoc's office, so what. You will still DO IT.

That is the only thing that counts. There are SOOOO many things I can't do either without help.

Its okay.

Love and Hugs,
Keli

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Thu, 08-11-2005 - 12:39am

Thanks Keli. I guess I know somewhere inside that is true, but I still have my doubts. I guess it's cause I'm "making waves" which I don't like to do anyway, then I'm afraid that if/when it does get to court the judge will basically laugh at me because that's more or less what he did to me when we got divorced. Circumstances were different, I was only working part time and ex dh was still paying support on his eldest 2 kids. I'm now working full time and he is no longer paying support for the other 2. But I still feel that I'm going to be chastised for trying to get my kids the support they rightly deserve. It's hard to explain, but it all boils down to fear I guess. ACOA and BP are not a good combination. I second guess my second guesses! Ugh!


Hugs,
Traci

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