It just HIT me-hard Trrrrigs
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It just HIT me-hard Trrrrigs
| Tue, 08-09-2005 - 3:35pm |
Ever have one of those depressions that comes on you so quick you feel sick to your stomach, like it's dropped down to your feet? My highs and lows are so drastic I don't feel like I want to go on. I was watching the news yesterday and everything was bad, which started me down this road. Why are there so many cruel people out there? I am not safe today. I have been fighting tears all day. Not just because of my feelings but the whole world in general. It's not where I want to be. I have never been happy. Why has it suddenly hit me so hard today though? I want to drive my car into a tree. If I survived at least I wouldn't have the car payment anymore. I don't want all this responsibility anymore. I'm tired. I want to start over again as somebody else. I mean I really do have an INTENSE desire to begin life again as another person. Maybe get it right next time.
Unhappily signing off,
Jodie
Unhappily signing off,
Jodie

ok Jodie, I don't know you very well yet....but please please please call someone.
God could not be everywhere, so
Jodie,
Of course I know how that feels...that is exactly how I've felt for quite a while now. Its like a truck running over you, over and over again without stopping.
Please please please please call your pdoc and tell him/her of these feelings. Please do it, if not for yourself, then do it for me. I know you don't know me personally, but I care for you very much. You are WORTH saving, Jodie...You're worth so much more than that.
You deserve to be happy, and you CAN be. I know its hard. I know it is. I know it plain down right SUCKS to be Bipolar. But there are small victories. And you can feel good again, you just have to NOT GIVE UP! Please HEAR ME! You have to be strong, and you have to freaking fight it.
Go call someone. Anyone. Get some help. If you have to, GO TO THE ER again. I mean it. There isn't that much pride in the world, to stop yourself from helping yourself.
Promise me.
I'll check back in a little while. And every day until I hear from you, I will worry. Don't make me worry. Okay?
We care about you and we want you AROUND.
Love and Hugs,
Keli
Jodie,
You have a perfect opportunity to start as a new person--it's called tomorrow and if one day doesn't get, you get a whole new chance the next day!
Jodie,
How are you today? Please post to me, okay?
I miss you and I want to know how you're doing!
Love and Hugs,
Keli