Still mixed

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Registered: 09-15-2004
Still mixed
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Wed, 08-10-2005 - 10:39am
Yesterday was horrible. I was so depressed when I went home. I curled up into a ball on my bed. I felt terribly guilty for wanting to leave my DH behind. My little dog sat on the end of the bed watching me. She slowly walked up to me and curled herself around my wrist, (she is VERY tiny) in a tight little ball of fluff. She looked up at me with those big brown eyes and I felt even more guilty. So I played the same song over and over again on my CD player. I worked out and listened. I ate, I slept. I woke up and watched TV and then slept again. I woke up this morning feeling a bit better and now in the last hour I have gotten extremely MANIC. I am working at 90 miles a minute. I prefer being manic to depressed. Things just get DONE when I'm manic. Lord knows how I'll feel later in the day. I don't think I will feel as bad as yesterday though. I see my tdoc tomorrow and my pdoc the day after. I would REALLY like to stay manic!
Thanks to eveyone for listening to me mope!
Jodie

Jodie

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Registered: 04-06-2005
In reply to: pommom2005
Wed, 08-10-2005 - 10:56am

Jodie


I'm glad you are feeling better today.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: pommom2005
Wed, 08-10-2005 - 10:58am

Jodie,

Manic is better than depressed, you're right. But what concerns me is how fast you're cycling...that's ultradian...like me...its not any fun, cuz you don't know what you're gonna be at any given moment. You did perfect last night by the way! I'm so proud of you. Take today as it comes, and go with it. Post when and if you need to. I'll be around all day...k?

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 09-01-2004
In reply to: pommom2005
Wed, 08-10-2005 - 2:55pm

Jodie,


Mania can help us accomplish stuff and it definitely has it's good side and sometimes it's REAL good, but that worm can turn on a moment's notice and get darn UGLY.