Today is a day for mania
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| Wed, 08-17-2005 - 10:10pm |
Obviously from the title of this post...I am up up up today. Works out great for me though...I cleaned the whole house and even waxed my kitchen sink and scrubbed the molding? I think thats what its called...around the edges of the kitchen walls with a brush and some cleaner. I have been going non-stop since 6 am and its just fabulous...too bad I cant sleep when I am up or I would never take meds...yeah I know its a bad idea but its so great to actually accomplish so much in one day and not feel like you are dead tired yanno? But just to dampen my wonderful day, DH decides to completely ignore me 99% of the day. I mean ok I understand when he is working, he has to ignore me pretty much...but even when he isnt he just pays me no attention whatsoever, and knows its bothering me and still does other things. I dont get it. He always is bothered when I am down because he cant help me feel better and then when I am finally up for a change he acts like I dont exist? Whats that all about? Anyways just wanted to throw out these random thoughts...I hope you all have a wonderful night and day tomorrow and ((((Hugs))))) to everyone who needs them.
Rebekah


Hi Rebekah! How are you feeling today? Still up?
I know how you feel about dh's ... mine does that to me sometimes too, and he knows it drives me nuts, so I don't know why they do it either. Ugh.
Hugs honey!
Keli
Hiya Keli :)
Still up today! Its driving me crazy too....lol I have already rearranged all DH's stuff in the office area and am doing the rest of the laundry and thinking about what else I can do. I might tackle the storage closet and get it more organized. DH wanted to do it, but he doesnt have time.
I figured out what his problem has been lately. He just started working from home the first week in August, and his production level is WAYYYYYYYYYY low. He got an email from his boss putting him on probation for it, so hes stressing about losing his job and me and the kids dont make it any easier, even though we are trying to do our best to help yanno? I also found out he doesnt like it when I am manic, I was like "you dont?!?!" Hes like "nope" I couldnt believe it. I mean geez I clean like a crazy woman and get a million times more stuff done than normal and the only drawback is I dont sleep...but I got Seroquel last time with pdoc and I just take a little more than normal right now since I am manic and I am able to get a few hours in, which is ok. So whats not to like? LOL
Anyways, I am glad to see you back. I dunno what happened because I am new but at least you are here again :) Heres to a great day!
Rebekah
well, the thing with mania is (as i am sure you already know...) there is the "good" mania and there the EVIL horrible ugly mania...the kind i had during my mixed episode of sorts during the last 6 or 7 weeks...ugh...then mix that with crashing into depression on the hour and its bad...but anyway, my dh doesn't like any of it either...but who can really blame them. They have no idea who we really are at any given point in time. Gotta be tough. However, i don't feel sorry for them, because WE have to LIVE IT. They live WITH it. There is a HUGE HUGE HUGE difference.
Anyway, if your mania is still around tomorrow, it might be time to get concerned...you Don't want to crash...and you know if you're up, you WILL come down. sorry to even bring that up, but i don't want you to forget that part of it, as its sooooo easy to do when you feel good and have all this energy.
Do you work outside the home, or do you stay home with the kiddies?
I work...thank God. I couldn't stay home, I would go nuts....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Like that little play on words? Funny, huh?
I am a bit hypomanic too, but not too bad. And I am sleeping on my own, for at least 5 hours a night, so that's my biggest concern. When I don't sleep at all, we know I have a problem. I have other little precursors to mania, and they aren't presenting, so I'm okay. Just better, I think. I was bad off for a long time.
Have a good day!
Love and Hugs,
Keli
I am worried that I need to readjust my meds...I have to go get a serum lithium level done and am waiting on a Financial Aid check before we can afford it...which is going to come first week in September so still about 3 weeks away. I am doing immensely better with both the ups and downs than before meds so even if they need adjustment I hope I can still hack it until I can get to the pdoc to have them adjusted. Yeah I have the "I cant sleep no matter what I do" right before an episode of mania. I stayed up till 3 am and then went to bed and then the next day...well...it was yesterday :)
I dont know that I have ever had a really bad manic episode. The worst I have done is spend ridiculous amounts of money and cause financial snowballs...but nothing violent or mean or anything like that. I dont do that anymore though thank God. After not being able to pay my rent one month because I blew all the rent money...and having two kids to take care of...it stopped that. Now when I get manic and want to go shopping I start cleaning instead :D
I am lucky enough to be a SAHM...I absolutely love it. It did make me nuts(why do you think im here...haha)but now my kids are in Kindergarten and 1st grade so its a break from them and time to make sure the house is all in order all at the same time. I am starting the Fall Semester ummm....the 29th of August and I will have classes 4 days a week...so things will get a little more stressful..right now is Summer break before Fall Semester and the kids just started school again so its a mini vacation. I don't have to work, which is really great because I dont know if I could actually until I really get a handle on these ups and downs yanno? I feel soooooo bad for women who have to work and raise their children and deal with mental illness and have no real support system, it must be SO hard....I know before I married my DH, I was a single mom, but I was able to just go to school and not work because of some other financial issues...so even then I didnt have nearly as much stress as someone who has to work full time and take care of everything when all you want to do is lay under the covers and cry all day. My grades were terrible when I was trying to go to school before I got married. My GPA went from a 3.5 (before kids) to a 2.1 (after kids) and just this summer semester(I got married in March) did I get A's in my classes. So anywho, I feel very lucky to be where I am today.
Thanks for the reminder about the down time thats coming...you are right...I dont even think about it at all until its here and I feel like the world is going to end. I remember when I first went on meds, I was up for about a week and then it crashed, and I was like "OMG the meds arent gonna help and I am going to go crazy and there's nothing I can do about it" so I stayed in bed for ehhhhhhh two weeks maybe..then it was ok again. I hope the next one isn't quite as bad, I need to keep my head above water with my classes this time around..I am taking a super hard Sociological Theory class and I cant have any huge down episodes during that class or I wont be able to catch up.
Anyways, thats that for today. Thanks for listening and encouragement :)
Yeah, ummmmm, you're pretty manic! :) Since you can't get to a pdoc, my best advice to you is to take the Seroquel. Even if you have to double up on them for a bit, to get you down to a level you can maintain without crashing. You do have them to take "as needed" and you need them, trust me. I would start with 50 mgs tonight to get a GOOD, FULL night's sleep. Then you can determine from that what you need. Your first priority should be a good nights sleep, very soon. Okay?
Keep us posted!
I'll be here til around 4, so I'll check back in a little while to see if you have any questions or need anything else!
Hugs and Good Night's Sleep VIBES!
Keli
I am planning to hit the bed about 9 pm tonight after the kids are in bed and I finish all the before bed stuff I need to get done. I usually take about half a 25 mg Seroquel for normal nights sleep...and last night I took a whole 25 mg and slept 5-6 hours, but the baby woke up early not feeling well so that might have been part of it(haha I say baby and she is 5) So after that she went back to sleep and I couldnt. My manic episodes seem to last a good while...usually a week or so, then I am down for a few weeks then back up again. Usually its a week of up for every two weeks of down time, thats average, before meds it was up and down every other day or even in the same day so this is like heaven even having them this far apart. Anywho, the laundry is wrinkling in the pile as we speak...so I'll check back when im done :)
Rebekah
Okay, good...then take another whole 25 tonight. I do the same thing...I start with a half...then go to a whole...if that doesn't give me at least 5 hours, I will go to 50 mgs. Pdoc says that's perfectly fine too...I hate the down times...and ya know what? Even the UPs get "old" after a few days.
Hang in there girl!
BTW: I'm in FL too.
:)