checking in - poss. trigs

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checking in - poss. trigs
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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 12:01pm

just checking in. if I can ask, please send some positive vibes my way. I'm doing things I'm not proud of at all and cant seem to stop. I'm totally losing my grip and I hate it.


anyway, i just wanted to check in and ask for some positive vibes 'cause i really need them right now.


thanks


traci

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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 12:13pm
sorry things are so hard right now, good vibes are coming your way!

littlemascara
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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 1:01pm

((((Traci)))


Big hugs and huge vibes coming your way.....


vent away if you need to...we are here for you


we love you




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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 3:08pm

Traci,

Sending you as many positive thoughts as I can and hoping tomorrow is a better day for you.

Catherine

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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 3:39pm

thanks everyone. I'm really not sure what's going on with me lately but it's got me by the tail.


I just got back from tdoc's office and she's upset that I didn't call her last week when the episode was starting. I just couldn't 'cause I wasn't *in crisis* at that point, just a little depressed. Then, as it got worse I started doing things that are neither safe or healthy. At that point I couldn't call her because the last time I did these things I almost landed i/p. With work starting again next week I just can't go right now. All employees are required to not miss any time during the first week of school.


Anyway, dd's appointment was first and tdoc (much as I had hoped otherwise) took one look at me and knew I was not in good shape. So we all went in to her office and she had her session with dd and ended hers a few minutes early, figuring she might need some extra time for mine. So we talked for almost an hour and a half. I had worn jeans to keep certain things from view and did my best to keep the conversation away from SI. For at least today, it worked.


I meet with pdoc tomorrow, but don't know that he'll change anything around. Tdoc said everything we talked about today was environmental stuff. So if that is the case hopefully he won't do anything with my meds.


I'm going to go lay down now. I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate your love and support.


Traci

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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 5:07pm

(((Traci)))


Lots of love and positive vibes coming your way!


Hugs,
Amanda

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