update tdoc appt, trigs

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update tdoc appt, trigs
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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 5:31pm

Hi everyone,


I had my tdoc appointment today. We talked about Ottawa. She was very proud of me for making it. She said that anyone would have panicked in my situation and that it didn't have to do with my illness.

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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 9:23am

((((Amanda))))


I'm not sure what to say exactly.

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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 12:34pm

Amanda,

I am proud of you too, honey. That was AWESOME!

Its time to move out and definitely talk to C and see what you can come up with. Best of luck with disability support.

Keep us posted about your pdoc appointment.

Hugs,

Keli

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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 5:58pm

My appointment with C was very good. She's given me a lot to do towards getting disability, financial aid and housing.


I went to the financial aid office but the person I wanted to see doesn't see students until Monday. I also picked up my transcripts finally.


I didn't get around to making the appointments I needed to *tsk tsk* Once again I went on the computer when I got home and then it was after 5:00 before I knew it.


Tomorrow I will get that all out of the way.


I'm also working really hard to think about the present and enjoy what stability I have and not think about the time that will come when I crash or go crazy. And I'm trying to look at each step as it comes and not the whole process or it becomes overwhelming. I am very proud of how far

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Thu, 08-25-2005 - 10:03pm

Amanda,


Sounds like your trip had some unexpected "surprises", but it sounds like you dealt with them just fine.


Maybe today wasn't the day to tell your tdoc about all your experiences, but I know from hard experience that the longer you put off dealing with SA the more problems it can cause.

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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 10:04pm

Here's the link, check it out:


http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-bhssdi

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Fri, 08-26-2005 - 1:01pm

Thanks (((Marci)))


I'm so nervous about the disability. I just don't know if I'll get accepted for it. I'm going on account of the suspected fibro, but I will need a definate dx, so this should be fun. I guess the mental health issues could come in too, but I don't know. I'm nervous about talking to my dr about it. I hate having to speak up about things. I did mention it to pdoc, tdoc and C, who for the most part seem supportive, especially C.


I guess I should get my butt in gear and start looking up and making the phone calls I have to.


Amanda

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Fri, 08-26-2005 - 5:31pm

Amanda,


Getting a definite dx on the fibro along with the BP could be what tips it in your favor.

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Fri, 08-26-2005 - 11:59pm

(((marci)))


I will keep the board in mind for later. I too don't want to read too much before going and getting the dx properly. I also don't even know if the bp dx is definate these days. From one day to the next it changes. The pdoc wrote to my family doc saying that the working dx is borderline personality disorder, but when I saw her today we were talking about where I was and she had mentioned that the chaos in my mind seemed kind of manic.


Amanda

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Sat, 08-27-2005 - 12:20am

I guess I should do more of an update.


I don't know if I wrote about my appointment with the disabiltiy counsellor yesterday, but that went well. We looked at disability and Ontario Works and Financial aid and housing. She thinks that it is a good time for me to be getting back out on my own. I agree. I am the most stable I have been in over a year and then when my supports are gradually weaned as I leave school I will already be settled.


Today I had my pdoc appointment and that was good. She's happy that I'm stable and is going to keep at 500mg of epival for now. I was supposed to be at 750 but had been forgetting the third dose. We were going to come off it completely but she wants to stay where we're at because I'm stable and we'll see how things are in a month when I go back. I mentioned that I do want to go off it but last time I was on an antidepressant without the mood stabilizer it put me through the roof. She said that the perphenazine (anti-psychotic) seems to be helping and that it should keep me from getting too manic. Does anyone have experience with using antipsychotics rather than mood stabilizers. She also suggested maybe staying at a low dose or going on another mood stabilizer, like Lamictal. That's interesting considering she said that lithium would be a consideration. Has she forgot that? Maybe. It was my suggestion to her, that I brought from my family doctor's appointment. The pdoc said that coming off the epival is kind of diagnostic. I said yes I will become manic (and this pdoc said it was bpd not bp at one time). I assume that she may still considering bp. I wish she would make up her mind. As much as I was in denial before, I am absolutely certain that I am bp.


Oh and I told her about my PCOS fears and she said not to jump to conclusions (I'm trying not to) and that the weight and ance should get better after I've stpopped the meds. If it still doesn't stop though, I'll worry.


Well enough of my rambling.


Amanda



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Edited 8/27/2005 12:27 am ET ET by schitz

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