update p.s. it's a good thing
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update p.s. it's a good thing
| Wed, 08-24-2005 - 8:24pm |
well, dh and i are doing much better. he decided to give me another chance though lord knows i don't deserve it. i think it might actually turn out to be a good thing. we needed a wake up call. he is being very attentive. he hasn't even been playing the computer. and for the second time in our four years of marrige, he sent me flowers. he has started calling me his godess again. he is accnolageing that that i cannot handle me illness alone. that my moods are not neccessarily something that will just work itself out. he has taken a real interest in me and the kids. and he is takeing a real interest in learning how to deal with my illness. any thing you guys know to help him would be great. he has realized, that i am not the only one who has to deal with my illness. the whole family dose. everyday. i will be like this for the rest of my life after all. whether i like it or not. i am going to find a new theripist and start acctually going. and he wants to go occasionally also. it is like we are remember all the things we had forgotten, and taken for granted. like we are falling in love all over again. i havent felt like this since we met more than ten years ago. i am again thanking god for my life. and rememmbering, that he is the love of my life. the only person who has ever accepted me the way i am. not inspite of my odditys, but because of them. i am so happy. i just wanted to let you all know how truely blessed i am. i had forgotten. thank you so much for being here for me. and pray that i can keep this up. i am not a perticullarly strong person, and i know that this will be work, to keep this going, and it isn't always going to be easy. i just hope i am strong enough to keep my eye on the ball so to speak. we have evn considered me not working. i don't know if i can keep doing it, at least not for a while. i know some of you understand what it is like to acctually be incapable of working. maybe i can dio something from home untill i get back on my feet. anyway i am rambleing, but i thought you might like to know. again, thanks for being here.
Becky
Becky


Becky
THAT IS AWESOME !!!
God could not be everywhere, so
(((Becky)))
I'm glad that you get to start anew. I wish you all the best together.
"he is accnolageing that that i cannot handle me illness alone. that my moods are not neccessarily something that will just work itself out. he has taken a real interest in me and the kids. and he is takeing a real interest in learning how to deal with my illness. any thing you guys know to help him would be great. he has realized, that i am not the only one who has to deal with my illness. the whole family dose. everyday. i will be like this for the rest of my life after all. whether i like it or not."
I wish I could convince a few people of this. That is awesome.
Hugs,
Amanda
Becky,
You may be right--getting this out in the open may be a very good thing--for you and your marriage.