I am here...probably trigs as usual

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I am here...probably trigs as usual
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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 10:57am

I am trying to think positively, so i hesitated to post...but i am here...i really need to call my pdoc about getting an antidepressant i think...i am totally and completely depressed...but she wants me to try to get stable without one...so i have to try for a while...i am going to call her though, and at least let her know what is going on with me...i am still very "messed up" for lack of better words...crying a lot, all the time, very stressed out (a lot of it IS situational however, i DO recognize that). Pretty darn agitated, but I haven't had the meds to increase yet, I'll get them when I get paid on Wednesday. I just don't know what to do right now. I could probably take some time off work, but I don't really want them to know I'm having a bad time again...I just don't...and to be honest, work is keeping me more sane right now.

I start therapy on Thursday afternoon...and I can't wait. I'm terrified, but on the same hand, I need help in a MAJOR way...

I will talk more later, I need to go for now.

I am okay, hanging in as best I can. Prayers and any words of "you CAN DO THIS" would be appreciated.

I hope you're all okay.

Traci...did you call tdoc?

Love and Hugs,

keli

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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 11:53am

(((Keli)))


YOU CAN DO THIS !!!

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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 12:52pm

keli - you are one of the strongest people i know! i have no doubts that YOU CAN DO THIS! you have what it takes to whip this thing and come out on top. i think calling pdoc is a good idea just to let her know what's going on.


my thoughts and prayers are definitely with you right now.


and yes, i did call tdoc. there's an update on the thread under my name. the one thing i forgot to put in there was tdoc and i were starting a once a week session instead of twice. that is until today. we are back to twice a week. i'm such a failure. oh well. something i've gotten used to.


anyways, i wanted to let you know that you will conquer this beast. i know you will.


love and hugs,


traci

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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 1:50pm
i'm surprised that your doc wants to skip anti depressants but i'm sure you & she have your reasons.
maybe she can give you something just to take at times to take the edge off.
altho those were my downfall & put me in the hospital so they aren't a great idea for everyone.
stay safe & stay strong &now that this WILL pass......susan
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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 3:02pm
thought I'd add my *****you can do this*** to you because I know you can! I know it's hard, but you're gonna make it through. Do any of your meds have AD properties? i.e. I know Abilify does, so I don't take another AD on top of it. though sometimes it sure seems like I could use it!!!

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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 5:15pm

Keli,


At the risk of being repetitive---You CAN do it!!!!


I know where your doc is coming from with the AD's because of your past experiences with them, but it's pretty darn hard to get stable when you're bawling your eyes out.

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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 7:42pm

Keli,


Are you feeling any better?