update? *possible triggers*
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| Tue, 08-30-2005 - 6:35pm |
i just picked up dd from tdoc's office. tdoc met with me privately for a few minutes. she asked me if had cut anymore i said no, showed her the rubber band and she saw my arms and pretty much told me to start smoking again.....i quit this past friday for health reasons. i told her i could not do that and why. 2 years ago i was dxd with the beginning stages of emphyzema. i've been trying on and off for these 2 years to quit. i've done really well this time somehow. i've only had one cig since friday. anyway, back to the update.......tdoc told me to try to surround myself with people (kids, alanon group tonight, etc) because that keeps my mind occupied and off of si. it's when i'm alone and have time to think that the si ideas get really bad. she also said she has not heard back from pdoc and will call me as soon as he calls her. although i don't see that happening tonight. hopefully first thing in the morning. she told me if it gets too rough to call her. i am really trying hard not to have to do that mainly cause i'm afraid she'll tell me to go to the er. OMG why am i so messed up?
there you have it.........an update of sorts.
traci



I can't believe they told you to start smoking again !!!
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