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Wed, 09-14-2005 - 7:49am

Okay, so here's my deal...I'm feeling a LOT better...but here's why probably...I'm supposed to take my Prozac, 20 mgs, only every OTHER day, but I took it last night after taking it the night before too. And it must have made the difference, because I feel much better. I'm not cycling, and I'm not manic. Just feel okay. The worst of the depression is gone. I feel myself again. I slept wonderfully. I got up on time this morning, and actually look decent this morning. I've gained some weight back that I'd lost, but it isn't freaking me out...I know I am pmsing and I will lose it again.

So my question is this...do I tell my pdoc? I kinda HAVE to, cuz she only gave me enough Prozac (15) to last me a month if I take them every other day. I am supposed to go see her tomorrow, but I was going to reschedule the appointment because I don't have the money for the copay, and I was just there less than 2 weeks ago.

What do I do? I need to tell her, very firmly, that I need the Prozac every night, not just every other night. It has to be what's made the difference, because I've done nothing else different. I took all my other meds just the same as always.

She is worried that the a/d will send me into mania, or cause me to rapid cycle...well I ALWAYS rapid cycle, regardless. I know if I'm getting manic and I always tell her. I need to be OUT of this depression for good. I need her to trust me, like I always trust her.

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In reply to: keli003
Wed, 09-14-2005 - 9:01am

Girl....maybe its just me, but wouldn't it be NICE to be manic right now?

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In reply to: keli003
Wed, 09-14-2005 - 11:08am

(((((((((Keli)))))))) That's GREAT that you're feeling so much better!!!:) And YES tell your pdoc! You said it yourself....


"I need to tell her, very firmly, that I need the Prozac every night, not just every other night. It has to be what's made the difference, because I've done nothing else different. I took all my other meds just the same as always. "


I couldn't have said it better myself!! In fact, before the depakote I wouldn't have said it at all! Right now I'm at your polar opposite. I want to discontinue all the other meds 'cause before the depakote they weren't doing a blasted thing except putting me so far down I didn't want to be up again.....didn't think it was possible. In short wanted it to end. Y'all knew I was bad, but I was worse than I let on even to you guys. Tdoc says that it's a good possibility that pdoc will eventually take me off these others, but that I have to be patient. My God what have I been all these months if I haven't been patient!?! Oh well.......time will tell I suppose.


Anyway, by all means tell your pdoc about this. She may be off the mark on this one. They are, after all, human and Lord knows bipolar disorder is anything BUT an exact science! Every person is different and what works for 1 person doesn't necessarily work for the other. You so deserve to feel better and I'm glad you finally do! I want to see it continue:) I want all of us here to feel better and stay there. We've all been struggling so much lately it's time we caught a break!


Keep us posted!


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Traci

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Registered: 02-06-2004
In reply to: keli003
Wed, 09-14-2005 - 11:28am

Wow did I miss something! Last I read she wasn't putting you on an a/d no way no how! I'm glad it's working for you.


You'll just have to come out and say it. I write things like that down or else I won't say it. I don't know why it makes it any easier.


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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Wed, 09-14-2005 - 11:44am

you have been gone forever missy! :)

i got basically suicidal...begged and begged for an a/d...she gave me 20 mgs of prozac every other day...wtf. did nothing basically...so last night i took one even though it was my "skip" night. i feel much better.

i need an a/d. even though its a low dose...20 mgs of prozac is quite low for me. but its working now, and i was SOOOOO miserable for 2 months. i can't live like that. i was THIIIIIIIIIIIIS close to going in the hospital again. i was going on friday, if i wasn't better.

so, i did what i had to do...if i have to get a new pdoc, maybe its for the best, ya know?

love you...and have missed you...hope you're okay.

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Registered: 09-01-2004
In reply to: keli003
Wed, 09-14-2005 - 11:55am

Keli,


How long have you been taking the Prozac?

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Wed, 09-14-2005 - 12:12pm

Its only been a couple weeks on the Prozac...my pdoc said some people she's treated with it have felt much better w/in 5 days, others a month...she said with me, who knows...I've taken it before and 20 mgs was a "safe" dose for me back then...yes, its a risk...all of them are...but I simply cannot function without an anti depressant. The mood stabilizers aren't working for me, not like they work for most, and I've tried them all. I cycle much too quickly. All they can do is keep me from literally going nuts. I've not had a mood swing this extreme in longer than I can remember. Yesterday was more down than I want to talk about.

Yes, I post a lot when I feel good, but it doesn't mean I'm manic. I have been SOOOOOO incredibly down that I've wanted to die basically for quite some time now, so I wanted to talk today.

Wellbutrin flipped ME into BAD dark mania...so we're all different.