I seen my tdoc and pdoc

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I seen my tdoc and pdoc
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Wed, 09-14-2005 - 2:49pm

I seen my tdoc yesterday and she refered me to see my pdoc today. He wants me to stay busy and to stay with my bf as much as possible. If I don't feel better in a few days he will put me in the hospital. My pdoc has me scheduled to see my tdoc tomorrow. That will be 3 visits in one week with them. Then I go agin next tuesday. I have their emergency number if I feel unsafe and if I have to I will go to the hospital.
My pdoc said I have alot going on and I have tp be patient with myself and it will take along time to get through all this with my mom and my dd. He said I need to value my life more like others value me. My family wants me to live for them and I should want to live to be with them and myself. I will stay away from taking all those xanax. He isn't happy about that but said he will trust me to not take more then perscribed in the future. He know I need them to cope with the panic but only wants me to take 2 pills 3 times a day. Less if I can handle it.
My dd birthday is Sunday, so I went out and bought her a nice jewelry box from Things Remebered with an engraving that says "My baby girl" I hope she likes it. I am starting to read some books, which my pdoc said would help me. I will try to start drawing too. That will be hard. Drawing takes alot of energy and your mind needs to be focused.
I like the artist Klimpt. He painted "The Kiss". I will try and draw that. I don't know if any of you know what that is. he is my favorite artist. I also like Amy Brown. She draws fairies. I have drawn several of the ones she has done. Not as well as she did but it looks ok. I am just rambling now...sorry.
Thanks for your concern and support. I will keep you all posted.

~~Tina~~

 
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 09-14-2005 - 3:04pm

Hey honey...you sound more grounded, though still sad, but that's okay. I'm just glad you're safe. I'm here if you need me, as always, okay? Know you aren't alone.

Your dd is going to love the jewelry box. It sounds really nice. The engraving was a great choice. Do you like that song? I really like that song.

You are valuable and you're learning that. Keep reading, and drawing, but don't rush yourself...take things an as you can, that's all you have to do.

Love you,

Keli

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Thu, 09-15-2005 - 12:03pm

I'm glad you saw pdoc and tdoc. I'm also glad that you're going to cut back on the xanax.


I would love to see some of your drawings? Do you recall my pitiful attempt at painting? I haven't done it in a long time.


Hugs,


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Thu, 09-15-2005 - 4:14pm

Do you think you could start painting again? I know its tough to do anything when its hard enough to get out of bed, or off the couch...but you loved it...

Your paintings were NOT pitiful.

k.

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Sat, 09-17-2005 - 12:26pm

Thanks Keli,


Geez people keep catching me putting myself down. I guess I figured no one would disagree with me because I thought it to be true.


Maybe once I get my schedule in order I can schedule some time to do it. I'm afraid I'm going to lose what luck I had with it if I stop.


Actually that's already true. You should see what I painted in July and that was pathetic...2 months I think of not painting and I lose it already, and now it's been another 2 months again. Man time flies. Tempus Fugit, eh?


Amanda

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