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| Thu, 09-15-2005 - 9:37am |
My name is Christina (30) SAHW&M to Jeff (29), Jeremiah (8 w/ADHD), Brieanna (3) our female rottie Rajah, black cat Onyx and some fish. Please bear with me as I tend to babble and I'm oftentimes very long winded. Since this is an intro post it will probably hold both.
I knew for quite some time that there was something wrong with me and this goes back to about Oct/Nov of 2000. Chatting with my mom it seems like I've been having these problems with my up & down mood swings since mid-teenage hood. I started to really feel the difference after Brieanna was born and made me think that it was more than just post partum depression. As of Oct of last year when Jeff finally got insurance and I finally got a drs appt. I was diagnosed with Bipolar, ADD, & anger management problems. I was put on


Hey there !!!
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Christina,
Welcome to the board!
Welcome Christina,
Wow that's quite the ordeal. I'm glad you found the lithium that works. It's good that your GP is writing the
Thanks for the welcome Marci. I swear I won't confuse you with the other one....lol!!!! I'm happy to hear that your DD is coming around and finally trying to understand how things are going with you. Have you ever heard of FLYlady? She is a lifesaver with the everyday emails of reminders on what's going on within the house. I've been doing this now for 3 weeks and even with 2 of them being depressed weeks I'm still able to keep up with things. I guess it keeps me moving so I don't dwell on the negative because I'm focused on what I'm doing.
I can understand that with your disabilities that housecleaning can be more than a chore and I feel for you. This flylady stuff teaches how to do things in babysteps and it might take a year but you can declutter and keep you home clean for 15 min at a time. I usually do 30 min in a hour going 15 on and 15 off. I'm sure that even if I were to only do 15 min every 2 hrs I'd still be able to accomplish more than what I used to do which was absolutely nothing. When I was feeling overwhelmed my brain told my body to just stop doing and look past the ugly in hopes that one day it would just all disappear.
One of the things I really need to do is get back with a p/tdoc and find out why I'm being so weird. I need a counselor who actually knows WTF he/she is talking about when it comes to my rantings and another doc to make sure my meds are correct. As I said before I started out taking 900mg/day at 450mg twice daily and it gave me the shakes so hard I couldn't hold anything. Now that I'm only on 600mg/day at 300mg twice daily I don't think it's working out since I think my body is used to it. I might have to ask someone if I can go to 900mg/day at 300mg three times daily to see if that works out better.
Have you ever felt weird and just couldn't explain what the weird was? Right now I don't know if I'm still depressed or if I've become manic because I'm feeling extremely manic but if something is said I feel like I want to cry. This has never happened before so this is the weird I'm talking about. Does that make any sense? This is the only way I can describe my 'weird'.
Christina; wife to Jeff; mom to Jeremiah, Brieanna, & Gavin
Thanks for the welcome Amanda!!!! I'm actually hoping that soon I'll be able to find a pdoc & tdoc to help me out. My mom found this place that accepts Medicaid so that both Jeremiah and I can seek out counseling and to make sure our meds are right.
As of today I went into the school for a conference and after all of the testing for ED's & LD's I asked for him at the end of last school year we finally can move forward. Jeremiah has tested for ED's since he is a very angry, emotional boy who has behavioral problems as well. He will be kept in general education with special education help on the side since his ADHD is causing it. He is going to start out with 30 min of SpEd one day a week and depending on how he does in his 1st month will determine if he needs more, the same or less intervention. The school admin. psychologist is working on his 504 plan and will have it to me by the end of next week. I know that with all of this he's going to need someone to talk to about his feelings towards this.
As for me I need someone to talk to as well about everything that's going on. I think I actually had a breakthrough on my own on why & when my moods got so severe to where everything went downhill. They say that every 7 years since the start of puberty your hormones change. Well if that's true then my hormones would've changed by the time I was 21 but I was pg with Jeremiah and they were out of whack anyway so I'm thinking it was delayed until after my post partum hormones subsided. If I were to be right on time then my next set of hormone changes would've taken me to age 28 and since Brieanna was already here and I was done with my post partum hormones then they would've changed then. Anyway, I realized that when my hormones started changing (of course I didn't know what it was at that time) is when my mood swings got really severe and I knew something was really wrong with me but I couldn't help myself because of crappy finances & no insurance. I went like this until Jeff's insurance kicked in and I was finally dx'd with BP right before I turned 30.
I have a feeling I need a change up in meds and I need someone to help me through all of my wierdness and to explain to me WTF is going on. My mom helped me find that resource and I'm going to give them a call tomorrow to see what can be done. This place helps both adults and children with mental illnesses and I'm sure all I need is a referral from my GP. Please keep your fingers crossed for me that Jeremiah and I can get the help we need.
Christina; wife to Jeff; mom to Jeremiah, Brieanna, & Gavin
I have been kinda feeling that way...but I wouldn't say mine is wierd...just plain all over the place.
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