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Tracey
| Tue, 09-20-2005 - 8:23am |
just sayin hi...hope all is well with you...how's it goin? still really good? i hope so...sucks my way, but what else is new...i mean, it really sucks...but again, what else is new...i'm getting really really sick of it too...but what are my options? 1. nothing 2. nothing again 3. nothing again and again
just wait and see if the meds decide to work...
i'm tired of even talking about it all...
just wanted to say hi really...
love
k.

God I hope I have internet access at the new job. It will really bite if I have to wait and post to you when I get home at night!!!
Things are wonderful. I feel bad saying then when you are struggling so much. I am working through tomorrow, but this job is paying me through the end of the week. Gives me two quiet days at home with Mike before I go back to work again...also means I can ride his butt to make sure he is employed soon.
You hang in there, I will call you this week and see how things are going. Keep talking to pdoc. You are almost to next tdoc appt, and that brings you closer to the EMDR.
Love
T
happy last day at work...don't you dare feel bad about saying you feel good and things are wonderful for you...that's good and that's what i like to hear...its about time! you deserve it.
i'm going to cancel my pdoc appointment...what is the point, i was just there! i don't want to go to tdoc anymore either! and i don't want to do emdr either...i just want to forget all of this, and get back to normal, somehow. i used to be okay, tracey. and this is so ridiculous...
my life is the freaking pits...its a mess...i hate it so much...i have absolutely no joy in my life at all...none whatsoever...no fun in any shape or fashion...no happiness anymore either...and I'm done. I gave all these meds a fair chance...ya know? I am going off Lithium...and I'll stay on a low dose of Topamax, but not much...for now...I'm just done...period. I will NOT sacrifice my life and the lives of those around me, my family, for the sake of medication.
I've not been like this in a LONG LONG time...and I know how to fix it...you know I know how...and I've done for months now what the doctors said to do, and I'm getting WORSE. I'm not having flashbacks anymore, I don't even think about that SA crap anymore...its not THAT! I wish people would listen to ME! I know its the freaking meds doing this to me. I've been here before, and I'm done.
Plain and simply...done.
Sorry...I hope you aren't mad at me. I'm telling Eric tonight. He's gonna be mad, but its MY life. I cannot live it like this anymore. I just won't.
Love ya,
k.